Jesus said,
"keep on asking, and you will be given what you ask for.
Keep on looking, and you will find. Keep on knocking, and the door will be opened. For everyone who asks, receives. Everyone who seeks finds."

Matthew 7:7-8a

I never knew the one thing i could ever want was so hard to have..

I want you to be in control of yourself, not alcoholism. I want you to be able to see yourself through your own eyes, and not the eyes of alcoholism. Once you see yourself with your own eyes and not the eyes of alcohol, you will want to get better. I want you to see that it's not you that hates you, it is the alcoholism that hates you.

I want you to learn that you are a good person, i want you to learn how to take control away from alcoholism you can do this, you can become the person you truely are again. Right now you do not have the power alone to take back control of yourself. You need someone to hold on to, so grab a hold of the one person who can help you through this the one and only person, God. He is by your side every day he knows what you see when you look in the mirror, he knows the way you feel once you take that drink, he knows your every thoughts. God knows the pain you strive to get through, he knows your dreams and your hopes. Let him heal you, Let him teach you, let him make you stronger and transform you into the person his heart desires you to be. Because that person is beautiful.

Let God into your life, because all he will do is bless you and give you everlasting love. No one can change the person you have become, only you and God can. Let him in, and work together to get through this. Without my God in my life i wouldn't know where i would be today, he's not only my God, but he is my heavenly Father who walks by my side every second of the day. He has blessed me in so many different ways, i want you to let him bless you. Just let him in. He will shine a light through your darkness, he will take all that pressure and burdens off of your shoulders, he will make you whole again, he will heal the hurt and renew your heart. You have to stop letting alcoholism take over you and your body, it is changing you into a totally different person than you really are. To stop letting it control you, you need to let God into your life. He can open the doors to a new beautiful life that you have been missing out on. He can open your eyes to the unseen. Only he can show you who you really are, if you just let him do his work.

He will hold you in his arms
he will never reject nor betray you,
he will give you everlasting love
he will make you stronger and give you unfailing faith.

For My God never leaves me. He stands by me and always loves me.
Let Him do the same for you.
For i love you with all my heart, stop the alcoholism from coming between us because as much as it already has, i still love you. I just hate what it is doing to you. You're better than this. Let God show you.

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