I walked into that room, in excitment and hope and joy and love.
I walked in slow with a steady paste waiting to see that look on your face.

Before i walked in, i looked on the names beside only noticing your husbands but yours i could not find.

I walked in and saw him sitting there in despair yet under everything there was srength. I looked there was an open space - a space where you once belonged. A space filled with lack of grace.

Speachless, not knowing or understanding.
In wonder of where you went, the look in his eyes so troubled and scared yet so humble and faithful.

I glanced back to look at the door to see your names once again, yet yours still didn't appear. I instantly got this feeling that uncertainty that you were near.

Your bed was gone, your smile wasn't there you weren't there.
I questioned myself, saying none of this was fair.

I go to the other side, i see you sitting their. The look in your eyes of worry and fear but most of all the look was heartache.
I could tell deep down you wanted to come back - you'd do anything to be in his arms, anything to just be in his presence. You would do anything it takes.

That feeling i had as i walked into that room, the feeling of uncertainty it hurt. Now the look in your eyes it gave me hope. It touched me, you touched me. For i know you'd do anything it takes. <3

I sit in the stillness sometimes, only to ponder about the ifs, ands, buts and whys.
Even though it's been so long i still wait to hear from you.
I wait and wait and wait somemore just incase you come back.

Come back to me, come back to me is what i long to see.
Layin' there on that floor, a pain i felt like nothing before.
Laying there so helpless and hopeless, as we tried to make a way for you.
I ran as fast as i could, holding my breath barely breathing.
Trying so hard not to let go.

I ran, and i cried screaming for help trying to erase the realtiy of what was really going on.
My breathing paste got much faster, as this scene became a disaster.
Laying there is all i see, beneath of me breathless and precious.
Trying so hard to move you,
in the end it was you who moved us.

You may be gone, and missing you isn't easy but it's the knowlege of knowing you're above watching over me.
Keep a good look out for me papa pete, Everyday is a day of missing you, but gainging strength from the pain is causes and gaining strength from your knowledge. Nothing compares to you.

You were like a father figure in my life, that i never had.
You taught me endless things that will always be with me.
And most of all, you're a hero. A hero that never let himself fall.
You faught battles until they we're beaten. You never let it beat you. You we're the stronger one through it all.

I Love you, PapaPete. Forever&always<3

I don't think you'll ever truely realize how much you've touched me.
How much you've touched my life in just a matter of seconds, minutes, days, weeks and months.

It fell on me today, like a rain drop from the cloudy sky. It fell upon me today.
Leaving me in joyful tears, and suddently everything was okay. You made everything okay.

The words you spoke, filled me inside with joy and hope.
I know i say this often but it's so true, it's the smallest things that mean the most. The smalles things can make the biggest difference. No matter what the circumstances are.

I walked in your room, i stood above you looking down at a loving, hopeful, graceful, strong, independent, courageous, faithful women filled with happieness of a life that was lived with no regrets. Thanking God for each day, for to you it has been a blessing.

I made a promise, a promise that i'd visit today.
I got pulled back and had to do what everyone else had to say.
Guilty and broken is how i felt. For a promise i made was shattered.

I realized it couldn't stop me, and wouldn't.
I wouldn't let it.
As i left the room and walked into yours i saw you sitting there so gracefully, so peacefully and so perfect in my eyes.
I walk closer to you, and apologized. I apologized for not having the chance to stop by today after a promise i had made.
I apologized for not being able to even say hello until the end of the day.
I did this because i've had promises made and broken to me. I knew what it's like to get let down. To feel left alone. I've known that and i surely didn't want to do that to you.

I walked in and said "hey you, i just wanted to stop by on my way out to apologize for the time we missed out on today, how i promised i'd be here today and i couldn't be. I'm sorry i did that to you.
she sais so presciously "hey girl, it's okay you don't have to apologize for one second, you come in every day and that is a blessing to me. Just having you stop by as much as you can i am thankful for you."
I replied and said,
"yeah but i just felt really bad for not stopping by when i told you i would, so i really just wanted to atleast say a quick hello, so thankyou so much for understanding, it means alot to me because i never want to let you down"

Suddently it went quiet,
i stood their in silence. A few seconds later the first thing i saw was eyes begining to blurr, i saw redness and heard a little noise. I heard sniffles and a noise of a cry. I saw in her eye, hope and love. I saw a heart that was lifted. Lifted so high and so gracefully. She started to cry as i stood their. She began to whipe her eyes. She stumbles her words and says, "you don't know how much you mean to me, and it makes me cry when you are as sweet as you are, you don't understand how much it means to me to have you and to have you visit me everyday, you never have to apologize to me, i love you girl."

as the tears fell apon her cheek, i looked into her loving soft eyes and shed a tear, for it touched me, she touched me. I never knew how much i meant to her, and hearing those words from her voice was clairity and made me realize you never know how much you mean to someone, and how big of an inspiration you are to them. We all learn from eachother and look up to one another.

I shed a tear and gently bent down to hug her in her chair.
I wrapped my arms around her and she hugged me back, she gave me a giant kiss on the cheek and said thankyou for everything you do. It's the nice people like you, who we never forget. I love you girl.

Moments like these i'll never forget. <3

& sometimes it's the smallest things that mean the most.

You never know what someone around you could be thinking, going through, or even wishing for.
It's amazing how one question can tell alot about one person.
One question could have an answer with so much truth and honnesty in it.
It carrys you away, literally carrys you away.

It inspires you, and challenges you.
It proves something to you.

Sometimes it is really the smallest things, that can mean the most.
There is a fire inside everyones heart that's waiting to burn, but sometimes it takes a life time to learn.

I asked a question today, a deep question.
This is why you never know what someone else is going through, or feeling. You have to understand that on order to know someone, i mean really know someone you've got to care for who they are, and what they feel.
You have to take time to get to know the person.

The question i asked: "If you could do anything in the entire world right now, what would you chose to do?"
The response i got: " Danielle, to be honnest it would be not here anymore.. i wish i was dead." Tears fell upon her face, i gently touched her back and said this. .

"sometimes life throws at you alot of tough turns. Alot of challenges that will challenge your strength, but you've got through all of that. Look where you are now, you may have been challenged but you knew all along you were stronger. You proved that challenge wrong." I then said, Plus what are you thinking, if you were gone i wouldn't even know you, and i love talking to you, i love knowing you.
She simply said, thank you Danielle, I love talking to you and knowing you too. I'm lonely here without you, but knowing i get the chance to see your smile gives me hope for another day. A new day. Because you are such a beautiful person inside and out.

Sometimes it's the smallest things in life that may mean the most.
<3

I find it strange how life can move on so fast, slippin'right out of our hands.
Yet every single time we try to move on somethings pulling us back. Forcing us to stay in the past.

A stronghold against us, leaving us thinkin'were usless.
Words from the world changing our minds.
We get challenged, our strength gets challenged. It's the wisdom of knowing you are stronger that will give you unblelievable strength that can go beyond far could ever take you.

I've found that Life is like the sport of bowling. It's all in the way you let your hand go, all in the stragety. It's all in the matter of how many pins are still standing. How many fall down, and letting go of that bowling ball only to find out where it takes you next. Whether it's a strike, a spare, or leaving everything standing still. Life takes you places unexpectidly, it's all in the stragety of how you get there.

I've learned that we get so caught up in yesturday, that we forget about today. We forget that today is all were garunteed. We forget that today is a new day. A new realization, a new place in time. If were not caught up in yesturday, then we're caught up in trying to figure out tomorrow. Trying to live for tomorrow and not now. Now is all we have. We need to stop focusing on yesturday and tomorrow, for today is what's going by too fast.

We all have secrets,
we stand there in the midst of everybody else trying so hard to prevent our secrets from slipping right out of our hands and into this world.

The truth is, imperfection is beauty and all of us are imperfect.
Our flaws aren't there to hold you down, and hold you back.
There here to bare through it all with strength that you gain from your flaws. From your own struggles.

You see our struggles are our own, people may have similar struggles, but we all handle things differently. We all have a different look at them.
You never know how many people could be struggling with the exact same things you do, the exact feelings, the let downs, the fear, the hope, the dreams, the addictions, and the flaws you call your own.

People strive each day, only to keep their secrets tucked away.
What people don't realize is that each struggle we go through could help another struggle someone else is going through. Each struggle has a purpose.
Our strength may be challenged but it's knowing you are stronger that is the real strength inside.

Everyone of us have feelings, and most of the time their all the same feelings. We need to open up more, for holding back won't save you from your struggles, holding back will just keep you down. But pushing forward opening up will let you rise like an eagle.

To me a good writter is..



it's not how good you write it, it's about the heart you put into it.. it's your own words the words you say are feelings , and they mean something to you. that's what a good writter is about, not trying to meet other standards but writting from your own heart. your own words, your own desires.

We all have different passions, different talents but you've gotta believe in them on order to live them out.

My grandpa use to always say, "if your not gunna get down and dirty in the job, you mid as well quit before you start," in otherwords, without putting your whole heart into something you are working on, why bother?
You've gotta have that belief.

Uncertainty of what is called life.

Life Comes In Chapters, it's like a mystery novel never knowing whats next. Uncertainty of what is going to be, or what may happen. Each chapter has an end. But don't let it stop you from looking forward to what is next.

You've got to stop Living for yesturday, quit rushin'tomorrow and Start living for today.
Today may be all we got, all we have hope in and for.

Like leaves in the fall, things change.
Like the traffic on the highway, time moves.
Like the thunder in the midnight sky, my heart beats.

Underall, uncertainty is the life we lead.

H & E .

Isn't it strange, the way someone else can give you strength.

I learn from you, in many different ways and reality is you don't even know it.

You sit there and i take in the moments i spend with you day after day.

hearing and listening to each word you say.

I adore you,

I believe in you,

I hope for you,

& i envy you.

For everything you've been through, and through everything you're going through, i envy you.

I envy you for everything that has ever challenged your strength, yet you pressed through and knew you're stronger.

The way you sit there so gracefully, and peacefully.

The way you stare out that window, with only the best things to say. Looking out into the world, noticing the sky, the grass and all of the trees' explaining how you think it's the most beautiful thing.

I envy you and learn from you by the way you still have hope. The way things don't always go as you wish yet with barely anything you have everything.

The way your love affects me, and changes me.

You and him teach me more than i ever need to know.

Your settle movements, your voice, your faith. Your love towards eachother impacts me. It shows me what this life is all about.

Not letting go, holding on with that little strength that takes you far amazes me.

you never go with the what ifs, and the wonders why, you never assume the worst but always holding on to faith and hope that as each day passes is a blessing.

You really have taught me more than i've ever known before.
You've made me stronger, and opened my eyes to what this life is about. You've showed me the way appriciateing things really should be.



<3

dear someone special X2.

throughout the days you have been there, both of you.
always smiling, and believeing in the best.
Every night I think to myself, how is it that the people who barely have anything really do have more than everything, because they are the happiest and the most loveable and precious people. They really do have everything, because if you have a love like yours and a hope and faith and belief you've got everything you've ever needed.

I learn from you, from the way you look at me to the way you say your words. To the way you shake, but yet so strong your love could never break.

It's strange how everything can change, how we grow old and that someone means more than you've felt before. It's strange how people change, how things come and go along the way. It's crazy how we never know when everything can be gone.
Sometimes never knowing exactly what to say.
Day after day, your losing yourself..

One thing i've learned from you, is this..
Give it everything, or nothing at all.
Strive for the things you desire and hope for.
Keep faith close,
and memories closer.
Love what you've got, charish them while you've got them.

Time goes by, and another heart dies a little inside.
Keep holdin'on, it's real strength and courage to love like you, and to believe like you do.
I envy you, for everything you do. Everything you've gone through, and everything you are going through. I envy you.

I envy you.
<3

Unknown.

In life I question things, I question alot of things. I've realized that my questions i have are finally begining to unfold. I've been carrying these questions deep within me.

I wonder where is God in a world so filled with unspeakable pain?
I find myself wondering if God is all-powerful and full of love, why doesn't he do something about the pain and evil that comes with this world.

Under all of these questions there is a truth, and I may not understand it fully but the things I have learned that deal with my questions that are stirred up inside me are that

I know and love a God of mercy and love, and in him we find hope and healing.
I've realized that he never leaves us where he finds us, unless we insist. He's always going to be there and until he finds you he will still search for you, for he loves you with his whole heart.

He never leaves us where he finds us.
God comes to find us in the midst of our sorrows, trapped by dissapointments, or betreyed by our own hopes. He comes to find us, he comes to take us in his loving arms, his heart is open.

Through the faith that's broken,
you gotta keep a heart that's open. Let him in, he will give you peace and hope, he will give you courage, he will give you strength.
Go to him for more.
Press onward to him, press forward, press deeper. Keep pressing.
He will open his arms for he loves you.

He never leaves us where he finds us.
Understand that guys. Understand it. Take it in, breathe this moment in.
Where he finds us , he wont betrey, he wont lie, he won't hurt, he won't dissapoint. He'll only love.

As much as we need him, he needs us.
He's our strength & we're his strength.

<3

it's always all the same.
right when things start and begin to get clearer to me, and better for us it all falls down again.
It's like the rain, you never know when its going to fall down on you.
You never know when your world will fall down on you.

Things change in life as we grow, and as we grow we learn and feel.
We feel things dad. Everyone feels things, it's all the same.

we hurt, we cry, we laugh, we lie, we fake, we take, we gain, we love.
It's all the same, we're all the same people with the same feelings just different reasons.

Promises break, and life goes on.
Love changes, and it all goes on.
It shouldn't be like that, it just shouldn't.

People shouldn't say things they regret, they shouldn't do things and forget.
They shouldn't promise things that they only know in the right mind they'll betrey and break.
Were all people living in the same world, feeling things we all feel.
Leaving things on order to heal.

I miss you, i do. Everyday.
<3

The fight for you, is all i've ever known.

I'd say, please come home.
But who would i be kidding, nothing ever changes.

Feeling and knowing you'll never be home
kills me.

Everything i can leave, is everything you should leave.
Everything i feel,you should feel.
Everything i miss, you should miss.

Do you know where change is?
Do you know where love is?
Do you know?

The fight for you, is all i've ever known.
I just wish the fight i fight for you, you would fight for yourself.

Keep fighting what ever you are fighting, don't give up hope.
Keep hanging on, what ever you are fighting keep fighting it.

Keep fighting this battle of addictions.
Keep fighting this.
I'm asking you, please.

Not just for me, but for yourself.
<3

I sit here, in the stillness trying to find myself.
I settle down, breath in and breath out.
Striving to hold back only whats left, all of this doubt.

I sit, i think, i scramble, i move, i love, i hate, i fear, i fake, i believe, i strive, and i hope.

Pushing onward to see the difference, pushing through to feel the peace.
Guiding me my savour, my hope.

Never letting me go.
I'm a believer, of the father to the fatherless, the lover to the sinners, the strength for the weak, the fullness for the hunger, the joy for the angry, the hope for the hopeless, the love the never ends.
God, who made this world in motion, who died for us to live. To love, to believe. Not to fight, nor hate.

I love my father, for he has givin'me knew eyes, new heart and new desires.
<3

No matter what, i'll love you.
No matter who you are, i'll love you.
No matter what decisions you make, i'll love you.

No matter how long we go without words, i'll still love you.
No matter what i'll love you.
Always have and always will.

No matter what choices you make, i'll love you.
No matter who you become, i'll love you.
No matter how much it kills me inside to go day by day without you, i'll love you.

No matter how many times promises break, i'll love you.
No matter how much you lose, i'll still love you.
No matter how long this takes to fight, i'll love you.

Because i know that if i could just be in your arms one more time, go back to the days you were around, back to the days where every single morning you'd make me that toast & my fav butter on top before it was time to catch the bus,no matter how many moments i don't see you, i'll keep the memories safe. I'll always love you.
For the times i would be really sick, rushing to the hospital, youd carry me in your arms and take me out front and just sit and take in the fresh air so my breathing would get better. I'll always be daddys little girl, just like that shirt i use to wear all the time, i'm still that little girl, whos grown up and realized decisions area huge part of life, they are what makes you who you are today. We all have regrets, but you can't live on only the regrets, you have to move on from the past, and follow through with your dreams and hopes.

I try to make sense of this all in my mind, but sometimes there aren't any answers. So i keep strving for them, i keep the hope & faith that everything will be okay.

No matter what your struggles, or weaknesses are i will always love you.
I'm still that little girl of yours in heart, i've grown so much over the years and thats the hardest part.. you don't even get to see your little girl grow up, sure i see you the random times on special occasions but its not the same. It just isn't and never will be. Every morning i wake up and i know i have an amazing family moms great shes a wonderful person who cares for all of us so much, My big brother shane, oh where do i start its hard to describe him, he's the best person hes the best brother and hes the bestfriend anyone could ever ask for. Nicole, i honneslty can say without her there wouldn't be me. . I'm not lieing, i don'tknow who i'd be without her. She's my other half, my better half. Family is family, and i wouldn't change them for the world because each one of them mean the world to me. They are my world. My strength, my hope, my faith, they are everything to me. Even though i hve all of this, theres always going to be something missing, and that something is always going to be you.

I Love You,
Your little girl.

I don't want to miss you anymore..

I'm just tired of it.
The same thing over & over again.
It's all the same.



I don't want to have to miss you anymore.

Sometimes life doesn't seem too fair, infact at times it seems like it's the farthest away from fair could ever be.

Life throws unexpected things at you, at unexpected times.
Everyone tells you to be strong, just hold on.

But times where you actually sit down and begin to realize the truth sometimes that truth hurts. I know it does for me.. just being honnest here.

Not a day goes by where i don't think about you for a moment or two.. wondering where you are, what your doing or just asking myself impossible questions inwhich could never be answered. And you see thats what hurts the most.

I have not a clue why this happened to me, or anyone in the world that goes through the same thing. But it did. And i can't fight something that aint worth fighting, i can't fight reality.

I just have to be strong and hold on.
I have to believe, and have faith that you're okay.

I know you can fight this battle, you can. I believe in you everytime i look into your brown eyes i see that hope. I see that strength that has been holdin'back for awhile now, let everything go. Let it go. Fight this battle for you are strong. Pull through, hang in there believe in yourself, have hope and faith.

Stop living for the world, but live for God.
Let everything go, let yourself go to him for he will carry you through your struggles, he will forgive you and heal you.

Like i said, everytime i look into your brown eye, i see that hope. I see a strength that can and will get you through this battle you just need to start believeing it and start fighting it.

I Love You

sad part is,
I'm starting to lose that feeling of missing you.

and it scares me,
only because if that's all i have left of you i don't want to lose it.
I don't want it to fade away.

Ph.
Dh.

You're such a part of who i am..

We thought of you today, but that is nothing new.
We thought of you yesturday, and will tomorrow too.

We think of you in silence, and make no outward show, for what it meant to lose you, only those who love you know.

Remembering you is easy, we do it everyday. It's the heartache of losing you that will never go away.

I Love You Papa Pete, i know you've been watching over me it's been almost a year now. But forgetting you is impossible. You're always in my heart.

As today comes and goes, i'll hold onto the memories and keep them close.
All my love goes out to the angel who made me who i am today.

I Love you, and miss you everyday. And will for the rest of my life.
No one compares to you, not even close. You're my hero.

<3

For you..

I know i didn't know you as well as i could have. But man the time i did spend with you, the time i did get to know you i'll never forget.
You were apart of alot of peoples lives.
You died, a hero.
People were touched by an angel, that is you.

I know all of your friends and family love and care for you so much.
And it hurts to see my friends the way they are, it does.

But not a day will go bye, where your friends and family don't think about you. I know you're now looking over us, and your smile is still shining down on everyone.

Everyone misses you, and always will miss you.
I Envy your closest friends and family for the strength they are holding, and the faith that they are carrying. I Envy them for that.
I know in hard times like these faith seems to be lost, but i know having faith will bring us strength.

If i've learned one thing, it's that no matter what, always keep your memories close.
Because the people in your life, are what makes you who you are today. Even if you barely know a person and only met them that one time or few times they still were apart of your life, this life. They still are apart of memories you have.

You have touched so many lives, and i know you are loved by many and always will be.
Where there is weakness, there is always strength.
Where there is strength, there is always faith.
Where there is faith, there is always hope.
Where there is hope, there is always love.
and where there is love, there is courage a courage that helps fight this pain. People hurt for you, they cry for you but it's all because they love you. They care for you. They envy you.

You will never be forgotten, so many people carry you close to their hearts and always will. We love you,
CodyDoan, a hero. <3

Rest In Peace<3

All i want to do is touch that place,
I want to touch that place of healing.

Place of peace,
Place of love,
and place of hope.

All i want to do is touch that place,
I want to touch that place of healing.

as i lay outside, glance up into the moonlight, stars surround the midnight sky.

looking up from where i lay, where i stand and where i belong.
deep down inside knowing this isn't everything, this isn't.
Knowing there is more than this.
More than this.


thoughts stroll into my head, wondering, searching and reaching.
I'm reaching up, out and in.

for i know there is more than this.
Gotta give it up, fight for it. Strive for it.
You can't want something, without trying, striving, and fighting for it. You can't just have it.

I want to know you more and more as each day goes by.
I want to share the love you have amongst my heart.
I want to show people the love that lasts.
The love that doesn't just fade,
The love inwhich is relentless, and fearless.

I am striving.

So Beautiful

Finding myself here in your arms, surrounded in peace
captured in love.

oh the feeling within
Finding that peace and belief.

Holding on tightly
more & more changing yourself slightly.

Leaving you Here in those arms
Hoping for the best,
not assuming the worst.

Loving the unlovable,
Honouring the unhonourable,
Believeing the impossible,
Hoping for the hopeless,
and
forgiving the unforgiveable.

Finding myself here in your arms, surrounded in peace
captured in love

I feel it all around, all around me.
Like the ocean surrounding the land i feel it all around, all around me.

I feel the love like a rush, like the waves.
I feel the love like a rush, like the wind.

Takin me under,
leaving everything behind, feelin' it going down.
So Beautiful, all around and inside.

I feel the pain going down,
I feel it fallin' down.

You're Savin me, lifting me up, shining on everything.

My Little reminder. .


Strive to love the people who are the hardest to love.

Honour the unhonourable.

Hope for the hopeless.

Forgive the unforgiveable.

Help the helpless.

" In the Lord, put your trust. " Psalms 11:1

& these words he said to her:

Get him out of your head, and let him in your heart. .

Behind every struggle comes strength, behind strength comes faith.

People have struggles and fears, but some people are just better at hiding them than others..

they have a good way at pretending everythings okay, sometimes just to make themselves look better and stronger but really inside you don't feel better and stronger you feel weak and broken.

Struggles come daily, everyday we go through things we wish we didn't have to face but reality hits yeah like the sun on a day like today.

The things we face are actually what makes us humans stronger than we started off as. Every struggle that comes always goes, but as it goes it leaves you with more strength than you even think you have. You may not notice it but others around may. And those people around you who notice the strength you gained from the pain you go through changes them a little bit inside, it inspires them. It opens their eyes to things they don't face but yet know and acknoledge how hard it may be to be in your shoes.

Behind every struggle comes strength, behind strength comes hope and peace.
Let things fall in it's own place.

Sometimes you want to try so hard to figure things out, but really sometimes things just need to figure themselves out no matter what you want to happen. Have faith have strength, have courage, have hope and hold on because through every struggle comes strength.

Takin' me away. .

Take me far away,
take me to a place where i can feel love,
take me to a place, a place of forgiveness,

Take me away, far away..
take me to a place filled with joy and hope
Take me away to a place feelin' fearless,
take me to a place of unloneliness.

Take me to a place much simpler than this,
take me to a place filled with so much grace
take me away, far away from this place,

Take me to a place with so much faith

Take me away,
Far away..

Build a fire inside of me,
a fire that never burns out.

Lord let me grow, more and more for you.

Lord find me,
heal me,
forgive me,
love me,
consume me,
teach me,
Lord help me see.

Build a fire inside of me,
a fire that never burns out.

Lord put a peace at my heart, like the early stillness of the water.
Lord show me there is more,
I want to give you, more of me.

Lord find me,
heal me,
forgive me,
love me,
consume me,
teach me,
lord help me see.

Hold me in your arms, so i can surround myself in love.
Lord i want to hold on to you and never let go.

Lord push me,
test me,
challenge me.

I give you my all,
for i know you give me your all.
Times i slip and fall,
I know you're standing there waiting for me to call.

Lord i give you my heart,
I give you my all.

Sometimes we hide things,
sometimes we leave things out,

only because we don't want to sound weak saying it.
we don't want to admit there are things we sometimes can't handle.

Sometimes i hide things,
sometimes i leave things out,

only because i don't want to sounds weak saying it.
I don't want to admit there are things i sometimes can't handle.

Anything, or Everything we can't handle God can.
Hand it over to him.
He will surround you in peace, he will take away the confusion.
He will fill you new.
Hand it over to him.

Hand yourself over to him.

Conversation between me & someone..
She said " you say you have forgivin' him, but there are always two different sides of the story"

yes i have,
No matter how much we mess up in life, or how much sin we participate in if we go to the Lord and ask him for our forgiveness he will heal us, and he will forgive us. He will clense us. The Lord doesn't want to see us fail, and even when we are about to fall he is always there ready to pick us up through it all. He always forgives. His love is relentless.


“If we confess our sins, He is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness.” (1 John 1:9)

We have to learn to forgive others in our life for the decisions they have made that we don't really agree with. We have to learn that no matter what the circumstances are we're better off forgiving, then holding everything inside and not dealing with it. Keeping secrets & holding grudges. Forgiveness will clense us and make us whole again. Forgiveness is the sweetest thing.

I let it all go.

Forgiveness is the sweetest thing, when you let it all go it's the sweetest thing because you can breathe again.
When the one next to you is the one that caused you pain
If you’ve been drowning in your guilt and in your shame
If you’ve been fighting and struggling to break free
Or if you’ve been left behind by the one you thought
Loved you most
Laying it all down, will bring you to life.

No matter what the cirumstances are forgiveness is the sweetest thing.

I know there are two different sides to a story, but what if i know them already or what if there isn't two sides in this one, what if every detail ever told to me is right and he's just wrong. Even if he has a side why hasn't he told me it? What's he waiting for?

Those questions i have are no longer haunting me,
I have forgivin you, I have.
I've forgivin you for the way you live, for the way you make me feel, for the way you make me hurt, for the way you make me miss you, for the way you treat us.
I have forgivin you, and God has cleansed me, he has opened my eyes.

I let it all go.

I'm forever yours, faithfully.

Consume me from the inside out,
Lord take away my fears.
Let all the hurt and pain just fall to the ground and dissapear.

Open my eyes Lord to the things you see,
Open my heart Lord to the things you feel.
Mold me Lord, Consume me.
I will neal for you.
Open my ears to the things you say,
Shine your light around me day after day.

Show me there is more than this Lord, Show me there is more.
Fill my heart with Joy and love, erase the doubts that surround me,
For more like you is who i want to be.
Lord fill empty spaces,
change empty faces,
Lord shine your light & surround me in your grace.

Change the person i am and want to be to the person you want me to be.
I give you my all,
Lord I give you my all just like you give me your all.

<3

People make mistakes, we all do. It's what makes us human, and in the end i think our weaknesses really make us stronger, underneath it all mistakes gives us more strength than anything they make us stronger. . and we all have our fair share in making those mistakes but in the end it takes courage and strength to go beyond those mistakes and weaknesses and see beyond them. See the beauty beyond the darkness. Behind every darkness there is a light, and it is shining we just have to find it.

We all have weaknesses, but behind every weakness there is a strength that counts so much more and we are just to busy trying to figure out how to fix our weakness we don't see the strength that comes with it.

In everyone of us lies a great potential, and we may not know what that is right now but we will find it soon. It's all apart of finding out who we really are. It just takes time and everyone of us are great we just sometimes get caught up in the lies that the world tell us that we don't believe it anymore. It tares us down when really we need to be lifted up.

Somedays i feel like i am the only one struggleing, when i'm not with you. Not until today i realized that there's still that hope that i can never let go of, because even though you're so close yet so far you are still here, you are. You're still apart of this world, apart of my world. I may have lost you for a little while, but in the end i still have you, i still am holding onto you. I've learned that a goodbye doesn't hurt unless you are never saying "hi" again. I atleast have my chances with you you're still apart of this world, apart of my world.
And when my world comes crashing down, i will not lose that hope i have for you because deep within i know you are strong & i know you will hold on.

You are still apart of this world,
You are still apart of my world.
Sometimes i forget that, because distance and broken promises come between but i'm learning eachday to hold that hope hold on with all my might. For this is a battle i know you can fight.

You are still apart of this world,
you are still apart of my world.

I Love You.

Out Of Reach.

Because you did mean them in that moment, and even if you woke up today and you didn't mean them or right now thinkin about it you don't mean it , doesnt change the fact that you meant it in that exact moment.

just because we have hate isn't an excuse for some things we say. I think it comes down to a certian extent. We do have some control to decide whether or not to say certian things or not, but in that moment we sometimes mean the things we say.

you know out of all the things i want you to do, you pick the one i want the least i've asked you to appriciate me and be here for me, i've asked you to come to an understanding of how much i love you and how much i need you around, i've asked you to change the person you are and really deep down inside i know i can't do that only he can, i've asked you to love me like you're suppose to, and the one thing you choose to do is leave everytime.

Now when i think about it, i'm out of reach.
You're so close, yet so far away.
I'm reachin'out, reachin'up, & reachin'in,
but i'm still out of reach.

I don't mind, I don't care aslong as you're here.

I have a faith & hope that always keeps me truckin' along. .

It's like a rush of wind that hits me so hard, it empties my insides and makes me feel alone. Makes me feel worthless.
It comes at me all at once, leaving me questioning your mistakes. Leaving me leaving you. It leaves me broken, and shattered feelin'like i just lost you. Feelin'like i just don't know you anymore.
It's like a rush of wind that hits me so hard all in one. My confidence is left behind, my hope is fading, everything i have for you is leaving. Every lie you told surrounds me, every wasted night makes me wonder. But something is there and it makes me hold on longer. It pulls the wind off my shoulder, calms the air i breathe in, leaving me slowly just to find myself surround in grace.

I'll always have this one question set upon my heart, chasin' the answers that sadly are impossible to answer.. "why are you so close, yet so far". I'm not so sure if i'll ever be able to have the answer to that question, but i'm still tryin' i'm still hopin' & i'm still believing.

yesturday i felt good.
today was different, it was a different kinda feelin' good day.

Today i decided that the harsh words people say do not matter for it is a lie, but the good things they say matter the most because it's what keeps me moving.

Today i realized that not everybody's comments matter. Not everyones comments are what you deserve to hear. It takes the strength to get through those moments of put downs, those moments of wrong. Those simple moments of lies.
People say things sometimes to make theirselves feel better, to make theirselves look better for the world. When really it's not what the world thinks of you. People can put others down everyday, and it doesn't get them anywhere higher in life. People can say harsh things that hurt and all it does is leave a wound. What right are you doing, when you're constantly putting others down, saying harsh & deep words that cut the core, what right are you doing when you make someone cry, when you suddently change their "perfect day" to the worst day. What good are you doing? What's the point. I don't understand why we tare people down, when we're all people. Why do we say harsh things , why do we hurt people. The only reason we hurt is because we hurt others too. We're just people, just everyday people trying to make sense of this uncertain life, that is just like a puzzle. We're all trying to find out who we are, we can't do that when people keep putting people down, hurting people, saying things that are not necissary. There's just no point.

And i'm sick and tired of hearing things that are better left unsaid, i'm just tired of it.

Maybe you were lost,
or maybe you were just affraid.
Either way it doesn't make what you did wrong right. It doesn't change anything. & you don't even try to fight it. Nothing will fix the mistakes you have made, only Forgivness will help you. God will fogive you if you turn to him. God will heal you, if you turn to him. Just Trust in him.
Make things better, not for me but for yourself i do have hope in you, that will never change.

I'm rootin'for you don't give up on the world for the world isn't givin' up on you.
<3

He told that little girl one day she's going to understand.
One day she's going to read the letter and finally read the truth that was hiden behind lies for all of those days.
One day she will understand.

She said, i want that one day to be today, i don't want it to be tomorrow or days later because she's been waiting her whole life for answers. She's been waiting to see what you have to say. Waiting to see if this so called "truth" isn't a lie anymore.

She's always been waiting.
Waiting is apart of her now.
Don't let her down by giving her false hope. .

Maybe he's doing the same thing as me...
maybe he wants so bad to call me, but just won't because I haven't called him... then again, maybe I shouldn't fill myself with false hope that he might just be missing me like I'm missing him.

I sit here and wonder if you'll ever understand just how much of me belongs to you. How much of me misses you. .

& Sometimes You've Gotta Love The People Who Are The Hardest To Love.

Sometimes i don't understand why we hurt,
why we hate,
and
why we lie.

I just don't get it.
and i'm not sure if i'll ever really fully understand the point of the hurt we feel.
Some people say it's what "makes us stronger" and it's a good thing but really? is it really making us stronger?
i'm not gunna lie sometimes i say it will only make me stronger, but i'm tired of it. I'm tired of saying that just to make myself feel a tiny bit better inside, just to get my hopes up and to look forward to the end result of the hurt i feel. When i never really find that end result of that specific hurt. I never find the reasons why.

The hate, why do we hate? We're all just people living in the exact same world. Were just humans trying to get by life day by one as good as we can, but we always have to bring people down. We have to hurt people, hate people. I don't think it's necissary and there is no point because at the end of the day it's what counts the most not the stupid hate we feel toward people, it's the love that counts at the end of the day. It's what gives us that hope. Hate just brings you down.

And the Lies, i would ask why do we lie, but this is simple. We lie just so then noone will find out the truth about ourselves, they won't figure you out. We lie to hide the shame we feel, the mistakes we have made, we hide it all behind a lie. Eventually it gets bigger. Lieing is what causes the hurt & hate. It really is. Maybe not all of it but lieing deffenately helps. Sometimes i think we lie just so than we look better, we're scared. Affraid to tell the truth. We hold back. We hide behind lies, just to get by.

I just don't know if i'll ever fully understand it.
I just don't know. .

Everything's gunna be alright.
Everything is finally gunna be okay..

As i hold on to hope, i know.

I'm holding on tight, givin in to no fights
for i know what is right.

I'm holding on.

All i need is you.

In everyone of us lies a great potential, Let God show you yours for it is there. God has a great plan for every one of our lives but on order for you to realize what the plan for your life is you got to let him in. You gotta let him in. It's the most beautiful thing, he's the most beautiful thing.
Let him shine through in all that you do.

I have a hope for him, i really do.
Somedays are worse than others, and some days are better.
I have a prayer for him, i really do.
I have a love for him, i really do.
I really do..

I try my best to hold onto those things, i really really do.
It gets hard, and sometimes easier. It switched back and forth but i'm always holding on to the hope i have for him.
I'll always love him, even for the times he's not here.
Even at times he's not even near.
I'll always love him,
I'll always root for him,
I'll always keep this hope i have for him.

<3

My Prayer..

Heal the hearts that hurt,
Take away the pain they hold in.

Fill their hearts with joy, fill them new.
Fill the emptyness.
Everyone press through,
Give them hope, & give them faith.

Clean their hearts and make them new. Show them the answer, for it is you.
Take away the hurt, the rejection, the fear, the lost hope, the doubt, take it all away and fill them with the hope, with the faith, and with the joy , with the truth.

Show them your love, show them how to love, show them everything they need.
Fall in this place lord, Fill these hearts that ache.

Show them what it's like to be loved, show them what it's like to know a love like yours that never fails.

"Hands" Jewel.

If I could tell the world just one thing

It would be that we're all OK

And not to worry 'cause worry is wasteful

And useless in times like these

I won't be made useless

I won't be idle with despair

I will gather myself around my faith

For light does the darkness most fear

My hands are small, I know

But they're not yours, they are my own

But they're not yours, they are my own

And I am never broken

Poverty stole your golden shoes

It didn't steal your laughter

And heartache came to visit me

But I knew it wasn't ever after

We'll fight, not out of spite

For someone must stand up for what's right

'Cause where there's a man who has no voice

There ours shall go singing

My hands are small I know

But they're not yours, they are my own

But they're not yours, they are my own

I am never broken

In the end only kindness matters

In the end only kindness matters

I will get down on my knees, and I will pray

I will get down on my knees, and I will pray

I will get down on my knees, and I will pray

My hands are small I know

But they're not yours, they are my own

But they're not yours, they are my own

And I am never broken

My hands are small I know

But they're not yours, they are my own

But they're not yours, they are my own

And I am never broken

We are never broken

We are God's eyes

God's hands

God's mind

We are God's eyes

God's hands

God's heart

We are God's eyes

God's hands

God's eyes

We are God's hands

We are God's hands


I Love This Song. .

Church
is
the
hope
of
the
world
<3

The Ultimate Disciple.

The Ultimate Disciple is one who :

Seeks Jesus in everything he or she does.

Submits to authority

Servent hood

Humbles himself

Gives God all of the glory

Follow's Jesus's plans before the worlds

Takes leaps of Faith

Loves others before himself

Merciful

Seeks out his/her gifting

Loves the people who are hardest to love

Sees the image of christ in everyone

Invited people to church

Worships God in purity

Non-spiritual fatness

Be true for who you are

Be accountable

Honey, I love your love the most.

I wanna be all that i'm meant to be,
I wanna be me.

I wanna see the way you see.
I wanna feel the way you do.
I wanna know something new.

I wanna learn your every word.
I want a love that will never change
I want to hear what you've heard.
Isn't it strange,
a love that will never change?

I wanna find my place,
I wanna feel your love,
I wanna surround myself in your grace,
I wanna see you from up above.

I wanna praise you for ever,
I wanna run to you, with everything,
I never want to lose you.
I wanna be healed from all of this aching,

I wanna keep you,
I wanna feel healing from your touch,
I wanna find peace in everything you do,
I wanna love like you so much.

I wanna see the world the way you see it,
I wanna know your hearts desire for me
I wanna know your love is permanent,
I wanna be all that i can be.

I don't want this to be temporary,
I want this to be permanent.

I know it will be.
I wanna be all that i'm meant to be,
I wanna be me.

I am so blessed to have Jordan in my life, for not only a friend, but my boyfriend.

You're an amazing guy, and God really does shine through in all that you do.

I thank the Lord everyday for you, for your love, and your care, and your honnesty, and your trust and I thank him for blessing me with you.

You really do mean the world to me,
I Love You Jordan.

<3

Just A Little Somethin'

She's like an anchor in lifes storms.
When the world comes crashin' in, and chaos rules my mind i turn to her and that's when love i find.

She lifts me out of trouble,
She comforts me in pain.
It is her who stops the storm and rain.

Shes the most beautiful girl inside and out,
she's always there for me, through all my fears & doubts.

I can't imagin my life without a bestfriend like her.

This world is a dark and lonely place sometimes and is filled with so much chaos to not to have a best friend.

I Love You Kayla Brophey.

I never told you,

I just held it in.

I never told you,

I just ignored it.

I never told you,

The way i felt.

I never told you,

The way i hurt.

I never told you,

The way i miss you.

I never told you,

The way you hurt me.

I never told you,

The betreyal i feel.

I never told you,

The way the promises you make & break make me feel.

I never told you,

The way i still love you,

I never told you,

I never stuck up for myself,

I never realized,

I never wanted to realize.

I never wanted this to be true.

I never wanted or expected to feel the way i do inside.


I Never told you what i should have,
I Just Held It In.

wishin' on a thunderstorm.

When i was younger i remember sitting in your arms as thunder would strike, i remember feelin' like those thunderstorm nights would leave me so secure because that's where i found myself in your arms.

I remember prayin' and hopin for another thunderstorm night,
so the loud thunder would come and defeat the loud fights.
Love would remain and i would sit there in your arms as i watch the lightning strike off the windows, as i heard the thunder. I didn't even have to for one sec wonder, because i knew in your arms i felt safe.

Now all i think about is how we're at arms length, i'm tryin to feel secure and safe again, i really am.
But it's hard to do that without you. Even though thunder brings in the fear, i knew nothing could hurt me aslong as you were near, i knew i was safe with you.

I'm wishin for another thunderstorm night, so i can hang on tight and just know you'll never let me go, know everything will be alright.

I'm wishin'

am.i.just.like.you,

can't you see i kinda'need y o u .

am.i.just.like.you,

can't you see i'm missing y o u .

am.i.just.like.you,

can't you face what you've become .

am.i.just.like.you,

trying to fill a space inside .

am.i.just.like.you,

all the things you took, i don't think will ever help myself because when you left you took a part of me.

am.i.just.like.you,

feelin the moments just slip away.

am.i.just.like.you,

empty promises that break.

am.i.just.like.you,

a fool and a fake, lies you always make.

am.i.just.like.you,

trying to cope with the hurt you feel.

am.i.just.like.you,

losing a hope.


am.i.just.like.you,

havin a soul full of fear.

am.i.just.like.you,

fighting a battle you just can't win.


am.i.just.like.you.

losing direction,losin faith, livin' in sin.

am.i.just.like.you.

feelin all alone, with only doubt.

am.i.just.like.you.

wanting only to scream and shout.

am.i.just.like.you.

t r u t h

i s

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f a r

f r o m
" J u s t L i k e Y o u " .

Why?

So Yesturday i promised myself i wouldn't miss you tomorrow,

Tomorrow is here, and i miss you..
I Just Miss you.

Why I Smile,
I smile because you are apart of my life,
I smile because of the great person you are,
I smile because you amaze me, and are here with ever lasting love.
I smile because I know how lucky I am, and how much God has blessed me.
I smile because I know you will always be here,
I smile because no matter what my flaws are you always love me,
I smile because, when I’m around you there’s nothing else I can do..
I smile because you are wonderful, and because God shines through in all that you do.
I smile because I love you.

I want to see the world as you do,

I want to see the hurt you see everyday,

I don't want to care what others may say,

I want to sacrifice things not for my sake but others,

I want to touch peoples hearts the way you do,

I want every fatherless child to know what it's like to have you as their father,

I want to be so strong just like you,

I want to see the world at your eyes view,

I want a love that i never knew,

I just want to be the person your hearts desire is for me to be.

Show me, open my eyes to things that i would never see, fill my heart.

I'm reachin' Up,Out & In.
Help me be the person you want me to be . .

somedays the pain overtakes my strength,
tares it apart until i'm weak.

Atleast that's what it feels like.

somedays i just want to run, run and never stop
until i find the place i want to be, the place meant for me.

Atleast that's what i want.

somedays i hate you,
and i just want to sit and scream.

Atleast that's what i thought.

somedays i forgive you,
until the last thing to do is love you.

Atleast that's what i should do.

I want you to keep fighting this, i want to keep rooting and praying for you, and i never want to face the fact of letting you go, But somedays i feel like that's all i have to do to finally move on, I feel like i have to let you go on order to move on from the place im in right now, That's the way i feel.

but if all of this is true, please prove me wrong, because i don't ever want to face the fact of letting go of you. .

But than i realize the beauty in this all,
The beauty that won't let me fall
God .
For he is there through every crappy day i face, and he is there with arms wide open waiting for me to jump in them, waiting for me to forgive you. And so i think and begin to see that forgiveness heals the broken. God heals the broken, God heals the hurt, God will take the pain away. He will heal every single one of us, we just have to let him in to do it.

<3

EverlastingLove.

He Brings:

Hope to the Hopeless,

strength to the weak,

wealth to the poor,

joy to the tired,

health to the sick,


love to the hurt,

truth to all the lies,

forgiveness to the forgivers, and the sinners for Our God never betreys and never rejects us, he loves us no matter what our faults are, no matter what shame we carry he just,
he just loves us.
It's everlasting love.

<3

†

There is a God who heals,
there is a God who forgives,
there is a God who finds,
there is a God who loves.

there is a God who's strong,
there is a God who shines,
there is a God who teaches,
there is a God who loves.

there is a god,
there is a god who sacraficed
and i will praise him for eternity,

for i love him, because he first loved me.

†

With arms wide open
Under the sunlight
Welcome to this place
I'll show you everything
With arms wide open
Now everything has changed
I'll show you love
I'll show you everything
With arms wide open.

You may never have to face the decision of whether or not to die for your faith, but every day you face the decision of whether or not you will live for it.

Today : March twenty third.

I asked a special friend for some advice today, it was that

me:
"as everyday goes by i'm losing that hope i have for him and i hate it. Everyday he's not here is another day of missing him, and i hate the fact there's nothing i can do about it."


She replied:

"never lose that hope dani there is always hope and God moves in his own time and at his own speed i know it's hard and it hurts but you can't give up hope."


There's nothing better than to have that person around for you to turn to when your days are crappy, and you just feel like the only thing you can do is give up. Noone can get through a happy life alone, it takes you , your family , your friends and most of all God . For God never leaves your side and is there day after day.

<3

changing.

The difference between the "bad" & "good" is that the bad know exactly what they did wrong, and still do nothing about it.
Whereas the good know exactly what they did wrong, but will do and give everything and anything they have to change.

they actually care,
care enough to change.

Noones perfect, but that doesn't give you an excuse to stop trying.
To be the person god desires you to be, you have to realize the mistakes you make, and not just sit there and ponder about them, but change. Because honnestly you can't change anyone except yourself, and sitting there doing wrong and realizing it without changing only gets you nowhere.

But changing who you are will get you somewhere,
it can get you anywhere.

...

it's starting again.
the pattern you never fail to do , it's starting
it's finally starting again.

The promises you make,
and the promises you break.

The lies you speak,
the fear you bring, the guilt you spread .
it's starting again, it's all starting again.

i can't make it go away
i try, but i can't.

I need you
but i can't.

& sometimes we just don't know. .

`How is it that some questions i have will never be answered,
Only analyzed and pondered upon until my heart and mind can’t take it anymore.

Thats a question the majority of us have been dying to know, we live on each day with wonders, of why? Wonders of what might have been, or how things may have been different. But yet we're all in the exact same place pretending we have all the answers, only to make ourselves feel better. Pretending everything is alright, when really we all have our fair share of feeling like nothing is right.

and in those times all i can do is turn back to the truth. Which is Everything happens for Gods purpose. We can't change reality, and we surely can't change the world until we change ourselves. We don't have all of the answers we are dying inside to know, but that's because it's all in the palms of God's hands. Waiting to be poored out. Everyone says "time" heals the broken, but my opinion is different. I think God heals the broken in time.

God will show you the answers you are looking for, the answers your heart desires to know. You just have to let him show you, they are there you just have to open your eyes and have the faith that you can look beyond whats infront of you and see the truth.

All answers will be answerd by God. For he knows how we feel everyday, he knows the things we fear, the tears we cry, the love we have, the smile we hide, the burdens we carry, the mistakes we've made and the regrets we have gained he knows it all. Let him reach out to you and heal you, let him show you the answers you are dying to know.

<3

Life.

Life is about change, sometimes it's painful,
sometimes it's beautiful

but most of the time it's both.

Everything Matters.

Everything Matters,
every little ounce matters.

You never know how much hurt someone could be filled with.
So much pain they can be holding so close to them it's now apart of them.
People take people forgranted, when really they know nothing of them.

Love matters,
every little ounce matters.

Everyone hurts, it may not be the exact same thing you're going through but in the end everyone hurts the same. The situations may be different but theres bound to be more than just you hurting. Handsdown. We just don't realize that someone else could be going through the exact same thing we are. We like to think we're the only ones hurting when really everyone hurts.

Love is the most powerful thing that will make you stronger. Love one another for their faults and their shame for love will fill you, and make you stronger.

Step out in faith & your confort zone for there are others hurting just the same, show love to people who you may not even know we're all just people - humans trying to figure this world out.

God is with us every second of the day, he knows our secrets, he knows our pain and hurt & he always loves us he wants us to do the same for one another.

his Love never fails, let our love never fail for one another.
<3

Would you find it in your heart.

It's funny how we can never find the answers to all of our questions'
as hard as you try, lies overcome the truth they take over.
Shame, hate, & hurt.

The last words you had said to me, were "someday soon i'm going to sit down and write you a letter, trying to explain what had happened".
What does that mean?

I already have my own answers for your mistakes, and now you're trying to brive me with a lie that you're takeing in as the truth. What could have possibly went wrong and happened hence what i call your "weakness".

I'm sick of not knowing anymore. I'm sick of trying to find my own answers to questions so big i can't even come to find one answer. I'm sick of you saying it's going to be alright and that you'll always love me - it's far from alright .
I know i'll always have your heart and your love, but whats that worth to me when you don't show your heart & love?

It's far from okay.
not a day goes by where i don't think about you. Not a day goes by where i don't regret thinkin ' bout you. But i'm tired. I'm tired of trying so hard to hold on to you, when really i barely have you. I'm tired of not seeing you enough. I'm tired of growing up from your little girl into a women you barely even know anymore. I'm tired of hurting, I'm tired of you hurting, I'm tired of the curiosity that crosses my mind every day wondering if you're okay. I'm just tired.

would you find it in your heart to make this go away.
what does it mean when you say "i'm going to write you a letter someday soon and try to explain what happened" when really i already know what happened. What is the truth? What are the lies?

someone.

Missing someone, or something only means that they were something special to you, it means they meant something to you, and means that they're worth something. That they are worth missing.

When i miss you, i think about that .
I know that you meant everything to me when you were here and you still do.
I miss you because you were something so special to me, i wouldn't trade you for the world. Because you mean the world to me.

Missing someone, only means they were something special to you, it means they meant something to you and means that they're worth something. That they are worth missing. Thats the kind of "missing" you want to feel.

what i feel

I hate the fact people strive for life, strive for food, strive for water, strive for hope, strive for love, strive for forgiveness, strive for strength, strive for passion, strive for blessings when we do nothing about it.

We take our blessings forgranted - once we get something we want more. Or we don't like what we have been blessed with. Theres always something more. .

There are tons of people who strive for those things, who would give up everything just to feel something ; anything. It makes me sad knowing there are people just like me and you who have nothing. They carry doubt and are hopeless. Why do us Christians take things forgranted?
Don't we understand that God has great things instore for us. He blesses us continuously and yet we take those blessings forgranted? How could we. .

People are people, we all feel the same. We hurt the same, and we strive the same.
We may do it in different ways but we all feel the exact same in the end. Seeing people just like me walking around with nothing, no shelter no money, no hope, no faith, no smile brings a feeling inside of me that i can't even come to explain. The pain it fills my heart with .

I know we can make a difference in this world for we know Christ and with him anything is possible. Why not help people who strive for life everyday. Why take things we have forgranted, when really some people have nothing we have. Why get angry at the things we want, but dont have, when some people don't even have a chance to feel that .

Nothing we get is ever good enough.
I hate it.

We are destined to lose, if we do this alone. God can help us he can mold us into the people his heart has always desired us to be. Each one of us are here for a specific reason, it only takes time to understand the reason you are here. We're all here to help people who need it. Why stand by them each day and just think of the things you could have done, but instead just do them. For after every greatness is a blessing. Don't just do it for the blessing though, do it for their own heart and the hearts you will be filling with love and joy. Do it for God for he did the same thing for you. He sacrificed things he loved for you. He sacrificed everything.

Let it all go.

Each and everyday we die a little inside. . atleast thats the reality of life right?
Because each day that passes is another day gone. It's just another day we can never have back . Just a memory.

shame holds you down,and sells you out.
From every mistake you make through days that become just memories it's shame that holds you down.

Come now just let it all go,
let it fall down, let it all flow .

It's not life that is killing you, it's the world that is killing you. Why do we all live up to the worldly things and not the Godly things that will bring you strength. The worldly things will only bring you death it will destroy you, whereas God will bring you life. We're all living up to the worlds standards and our own standards where are Gods standards in this ? We need him more than anything.

God will build us up, he will mold us into the people his heart desires us to be. Let go of the worldly things that are destroying you and hold onto God.

Come now just let it all go,
let it fall down, let it all flow .

Go to him and rest - for he will give you strength and rest when you are weak and tired.

You can . .

You can't change the world, until you change yourself.
You can't make a difference, until you be that difference.
You can't feel love until you felt his love.

You can't know right from wrong until you understand his word.
You can't show love until you feel his.
You can't understand the world until you understand him.

You can change the world if you change yourself,
You can make a difference when you decide to be the difference,
You can and will feel love once you felt his.

You can know right from wrong once you understand his word,
You can show love once you feel his,
and you can understand the world once you understand him.

For my God never leaves - whether i am on the right track or the wrong he never leaves my side, and it's his un failing love that keeps me moving. .

You have to Understand that you will never be able and have control in changing someone - Only the person you strive & hope to change can change themselves.

Open your eyes to the unseen, because honnestly the unseen is the most beautiful thing you would ever see.
Gods love for all of us is so strong and it never fades. His love for us is endless. No matter what our weaknesses are he always loves us and is always here for us. He never betreys, and he never rejects he's always here with open arms waiting for his children to run into them. Stop living in fear of what the world thinks of you or how the world wants you to live-for it is not true and Gods grace is amazing. keep on asking, and you will be given what you ask for, keep on looking, and you will find. Keep on knocking, and the door will be opened. For everyone who asks, receives. Everyone who seeks, finds. " Matthew 7:7-8a. God is so faithful and honnest. We need to start depending on God for he is always here. Stop getting distracted by the world and believeing the lies of the world and start believeing the truth in his word.

His Everything..

His love endures forever,
his forgiveness,
his protection,
his care,
his kindness,
his faithfulness,
his promises - all of it will last forever, his love for you is endless.

One Promise

He knows all about you, everything.
But even though he knows all of your weaknesses, his love for you will never fade.
He'll never get tired of you.
His love for you is forever.
Promise.

We are the paintings, and God is the artist.

We are all paintings, and God is the artist.
We don't give enough thanks and appriciation towards that.
We need to start building people up instead of tareing them down for how they look, and for who they are we need to accept them, Because they are a painting of God, and he designed you and made you who you are so don't hate who you are, or what you look like because that is an insult to God. No matter how big this world may be, it doesn't matter, God is much bigger and his grace is amazing.

Forgiveness will release you. If there is one person you do not want to become, if you keep imageining their faults and who they are you will be come the person you do not want to be. You have to believe in what you desire, believe you will not turn into that person. Instead of living all of your life trying not to be that person. Unforgiveness won't hurt anyone but yourself. Let forgiveness release you, God created all of us for a purpose, we are all here for a reason - the journey behind it is great. You have to run after that journey, so called life. The key thing for God to work in your life, is not being independant. You have to give all your heart to God for he gives all of his to each one of us and some people don't see or understand that. You can't do life on your own, you need God every step of the day, but also you and God can't do this just you two. I mean you could but to make it work even better and get you through things you need more than just you and God you need people surrounding you in truth and who follow God aswell. Gods your strength, keep him abundant, he's always here. We have to understand that. Gods glory is great and he is a God with everlasting love.

God loves unconditionally, he never betreys. Seek him. adore him. Love him, just as he does the exact same fore you. Put all your faith into God, he will never let you down. That is certian all your hopes and dreams, if you put faith towards God he will make those hopes and dreams come true for he is a faithful God who never lets down.

When i see hundreds of people worshiping our God i get this enormous endless warm feeling inside that is undescribable, i can't help but smile and giggle a bit to myself because of the amazing presence of God inwhich fills the entire place. It's incredible i get this huge joy in my heart that i don't want to end. So why let it end right?

The reason why we don't sometimes accomplish the things we wanted to is because we believed the lies of the world, and all we had to do was depend on God and we could have accomplished anything we wanted to. But lies of the world over came us like a wave in the ocean. We suddenly get surrounded by this huge wave, and we can no longer move or swim away from that because the pressure is to much for us to intake. So we drown in that ocean wave. Just like we drown in the lies of the world.

We are the body of Christ.
Without the body there would just be the head rolling around, we need to prove that we are the body, and show him that we are stronger than the world and we can overcome the lies. Live in the truth of God because there is no better than God.

so i'll sing forever - come be the fire inside of me, come be the flame upon my heart, come be the fire inside of me, until you and I are one.

-DanielleHouston.