I sit in the stillness sometimes, only to ponder about the ifs, ands, buts and whys.
Even though it's been so long i still wait to hear from you.
I wait and wait and wait somemore just incase you come back.

Come back to me, come back to me is what i long to see.
Layin' there on that floor, a pain i felt like nothing before.
Laying there so helpless and hopeless, as we tried to make a way for you.
I ran as fast as i could, holding my breath barely breathing.
Trying so hard not to let go.

I ran, and i cried screaming for help trying to erase the realtiy of what was really going on.
My breathing paste got much faster, as this scene became a disaster.
Laying there is all i see, beneath of me breathless and precious.
Trying so hard to move you,
in the end it was you who moved us.

You may be gone, and missing you isn't easy but it's the knowlege of knowing you're above watching over me.
Keep a good look out for me papa pete, Everyday is a day of missing you, but gainging strength from the pain is causes and gaining strength from your knowledge. Nothing compares to you.

You were like a father figure in my life, that i never had.
You taught me endless things that will always be with me.
And most of all, you're a hero. A hero that never let himself fall.
You faught battles until they we're beaten. You never let it beat you. You we're the stronger one through it all.

I Love you, PapaPete. Forever&always<3

I don't think you'll ever truely realize how much you've touched me.
How much you've touched my life in just a matter of seconds, minutes, days, weeks and months.

It fell on me today, like a rain drop from the cloudy sky. It fell upon me today.
Leaving me in joyful tears, and suddently everything was okay. You made everything okay.

The words you spoke, filled me inside with joy and hope.
I know i say this often but it's so true, it's the smallest things that mean the most. The smalles things can make the biggest difference. No matter what the circumstances are.

I walked in your room, i stood above you looking down at a loving, hopeful, graceful, strong, independent, courageous, faithful women filled with happieness of a life that was lived with no regrets. Thanking God for each day, for to you it has been a blessing.

I made a promise, a promise that i'd visit today.
I got pulled back and had to do what everyone else had to say.
Guilty and broken is how i felt. For a promise i made was shattered.

I realized it couldn't stop me, and wouldn't.
I wouldn't let it.
As i left the room and walked into yours i saw you sitting there so gracefully, so peacefully and so perfect in my eyes.
I walk closer to you, and apologized. I apologized for not having the chance to stop by today after a promise i had made.
I apologized for not being able to even say hello until the end of the day.
I did this because i've had promises made and broken to me. I knew what it's like to get let down. To feel left alone. I've known that and i surely didn't want to do that to you.

I walked in and said "hey you, i just wanted to stop by on my way out to apologize for the time we missed out on today, how i promised i'd be here today and i couldn't be. I'm sorry i did that to you.
she sais so presciously "hey girl, it's okay you don't have to apologize for one second, you come in every day and that is a blessing to me. Just having you stop by as much as you can i am thankful for you."
I replied and said,
"yeah but i just felt really bad for not stopping by when i told you i would, so i really just wanted to atleast say a quick hello, so thankyou so much for understanding, it means alot to me because i never want to let you down"

Suddently it went quiet,
i stood their in silence. A few seconds later the first thing i saw was eyes begining to blurr, i saw redness and heard a little noise. I heard sniffles and a noise of a cry. I saw in her eye, hope and love. I saw a heart that was lifted. Lifted so high and so gracefully. She started to cry as i stood their. She began to whipe her eyes. She stumbles her words and says, "you don't know how much you mean to me, and it makes me cry when you are as sweet as you are, you don't understand how much it means to me to have you and to have you visit me everyday, you never have to apologize to me, i love you girl."

as the tears fell apon her cheek, i looked into her loving soft eyes and shed a tear, for it touched me, she touched me. I never knew how much i meant to her, and hearing those words from her voice was clairity and made me realize you never know how much you mean to someone, and how big of an inspiration you are to them. We all learn from eachother and look up to one another.

I shed a tear and gently bent down to hug her in her chair.
I wrapped my arms around her and she hugged me back, she gave me a giant kiss on the cheek and said thankyou for everything you do. It's the nice people like you, who we never forget. I love you girl.

Moments like these i'll never forget. <3

& sometimes it's the smallest things that mean the most.

You never know what someone around you could be thinking, going through, or even wishing for.
It's amazing how one question can tell alot about one person.
One question could have an answer with so much truth and honnesty in it.
It carrys you away, literally carrys you away.

It inspires you, and challenges you.
It proves something to you.

Sometimes it is really the smallest things, that can mean the most.
There is a fire inside everyones heart that's waiting to burn, but sometimes it takes a life time to learn.

I asked a question today, a deep question.
This is why you never know what someone else is going through, or feeling. You have to understand that on order to know someone, i mean really know someone you've got to care for who they are, and what they feel.
You have to take time to get to know the person.

The question i asked: "If you could do anything in the entire world right now, what would you chose to do?"
The response i got: " Danielle, to be honnest it would be not here anymore.. i wish i was dead." Tears fell upon her face, i gently touched her back and said this. .

"sometimes life throws at you alot of tough turns. Alot of challenges that will challenge your strength, but you've got through all of that. Look where you are now, you may have been challenged but you knew all along you were stronger. You proved that challenge wrong." I then said, Plus what are you thinking, if you were gone i wouldn't even know you, and i love talking to you, i love knowing you.
She simply said, thank you Danielle, I love talking to you and knowing you too. I'm lonely here without you, but knowing i get the chance to see your smile gives me hope for another day. A new day. Because you are such a beautiful person inside and out.

Sometimes it's the smallest things in life that may mean the most.
<3