saturday afternoon . .

All the smiles you had to fake
And all the crap you had to take

Just to lead us here again
I never have the things to say

To make it all just go away
To make it all just disappear.

to feel more than betrayed and hurt,
to hold back all my tears.

when im looking for truth that's behinde your brown eyes,
you tell me to open my eyes and tell you what i see,

but the fake impression of you, it glows like that innocent moon .
the image others have surounded you with , to make you believe in the identity that is just so not true.

the things you lie to make it through,
the things you say but never do,

the hope in others that they hold
the faith they wish they had in you,
but all of this is gone.

all of this is gone.. .

down these roads i walk . .

Down this dusty dirt road i walk,
Kicking the occasional stone along the way.
Knapsack on my back and an empty feeling in my heart.
Off in the distance, I see a small town.
Looks like every other one I’ve ever seen.
No better no worse. Off in the distance, in this little town, lies my new home.

I'll always have a home to run to,
no matter what people say, i am who i am ,
and that brings me here today.

who we were, only brings us to who we are today,
In our lives we look for happiness.
We seek it in a place. Unfortunately the place, Is not the place we’re in.
We need to look more closely, At the place we’re in. If we look hard enough.
We may find happiness.

In a world filled with such hate,
In a world filled with such violence,
We need a clean slate.

To forget about the pains of the past,
To move forward in light
We need a clean slate.

i walk these roads to find more strength burried beneath the milky way,
i walk these roads to forget about what everyone around will say ,
i walk these roads with no doubt nor regret,
i walk these roads to find hope to forget. .

sometimes. .

Sometimes, it is deep down inside of a man
Who works hard to feed his family.

Sometimes, it is in the arms of a person
Who is fighting for there freedom.

Sometimes, it is in the power & strength of a person
Who is fending off an addiction.

Sometimes, it is in the spirit of a mother
Who will not give up on her dying child.

Sometimes, it is in the "character" of a person
Who is honorably in the midst of dishonorable people.

Sometimes, it is in the soul of a person
Who continues to pray even though he believes God has forsaken him.

Sometimes, it is in the heart of a person
Who loves but is not loved.

taking chances..

What's the point of life, without taking chances,
taking chances could bring you somewhere far and out of that alot of success, and even if taking that chance you fail, you are still in the same spot you ever were in ,
nothing changes, so theres no harm in taking a risk . .

life is meant for taking chances without them we wouldn't know what's wrong from right,
you may feel lost,
confused,
not so sure what to do anymore,
either, try '
give up,
carry on ,

breathing you come to realize life is to short to not take chances.
in the palm of your trusting hand,
and in your trusting heart
you will not be affraid to take a chance.
each chance you take, are all included in lifes great plan.

life is learning to deal with the things that come your way one way or the other,
without taking a risk you'll never know what you may miss out on,
and even if it's not the right choice youll still be standing in the exact same place as you left. .

don't live eachday with fear, for the unexpected,
live each day with an open heart to try new things and open eyes to see the beauty of taking chances, because theres nothing you can lose. .

on that day, where everything feels okay. .

somedays go by slow, feeling the pain through your veins flow.
the lungs aching,
the heart breaking;

somedays go by fast, feeling the faith & hope that will always last.
the desire to shine like fire,
the hope to hold on when your weak,
your heart begins at a faster beat.

you're feeling higher then before,
that feeling goes away that was once so saor. .

the rain drips down but the sun peaks through that shady day,
it shines and opens everyones eyes who were blind.
without a bad day, we wouldn't be able to appriciate the goodones,

it would just be so overated. .
everyone wouldn't be loved only hated,
people wouldn't know what it means to be thankful of what they have,
we all crave for more than what we need,
we crave for the things that catch us at sight,
but all everyone wants to do is follow and never lead. .
nothingness wouldn't bring us light. .

we go on eachday, pretending everything is okay,
but deep inside youll never know the things people hide.
People say things just to make it through the day ,
they lie so no one will find out what they truely hide within. .

but that's just who we are,
without the bad days that may come our way,
we wouldn't appriciate the good ones that stop in by . .

_ what i have learned. . '

I don't want to ever go back to the person i once was,
I learned i gotta take the friends, i have and make ..
hold onto them.
and the one's i lose fight for them ..
and if that's not enough,
let them go
and the ones who really care
come back in time like the stars that shine in the sky every single night.

us people often get stuck in reality, and in our own world.
we block the hurt ones out,
and we get caught up in what we think is "best" .
and us doing that causes friendships breaking ,
lights dim, hearts racing- lights flashing.

i can't stop myself now,
im in far to deep,
but yet i don't miss who i use to be. .
it wasn't me ,
i didn't know who to be. .
im ashamed, i hate who i use to be but i've learned to let it all go.
i'll never face the fact , that i'll always love my old friends.

a smile hid everything i feared of becoming,
but i became what i hated.

i'll be regreting the things i was,
regreting the little things i did,
regreting the life i use to live,

but what i'll never regret, is loving you.
people may change so quick,
but all it takes is time, time heals everything . .

& if it doesn't work have strength to let go. .
your broken dreams, and broken heart , wasted mintues,
nothingness breath,
photographs are all that's left. . .

a friend loves at all times. .

_ a friend loves at all times
the sun shines through there eyes,
as if not a day could go wrong,
with them by their side.

it's as if that feeling of trust stays there for so long.
that no matter what happens you'll always have them there to fall into,
noone can take the trust away no matter what they do.

when they just want to drop everything they have and leave it behind,
something comes through and shows them the sunshine
and shows them they can be strong.
someone out there will show you your strengths when you are weak,
they will be there to walk by your side soon nothing could go wrong,
you have to open your eyes and look beyond the bad and you will seek.

don't wait .
everyone has something to believe in,
it's what they desire and what they have hope & faith in,
without believeing in things in this world we wouldn't know how to have hope and have faith this world wouldn't be the same place. Everyone needs somthing to believe in.

friendship is hard to find,
but once you've got it , you have this feeling inside
that you can leave everything else behind,
you lose your guilt , and all of your regrets
you once had that special feeling but now all everyone does is forget. .

sometimes it's better to be in a dream then to be stuck in this world so called "reality" .
but when you have that feeling a special someone comes along - your friend .
they will be there when ever you need someone to lend a hand.

to help bring you up, to touch the moon & stars,
to know that you'll always be close and never to far.
to know that when you feel like your dieing you'll always have that person to turn to and confess,
confess the feelings you hold within your soul .

it's hard to see the sun without a friend to set it in your eyes,
they bring the sun when the clouds are out,
they bring the laughter and memories when you're filled with doubt .
they bring you their heart when yours feels broken,
they are your special little token.

friendship is being strong enough to trust in someone when you have no trust left. .
it hides beneath your soul trying to so hard to shine,
that person sudently makes everything again fine. . .

they take your fears away and bring you light,
they can lead you through a hard and dark night,
without them there by your side this world wouldn't be such a beautiful sight. .

_ friends love at all times. . .

The reflection - in that mirror. .

when you look in that mirror of yours what do you see?

do you see the real you,
or do you see the fake one hiding behind perfection. .
the one trying to be something not true.
trying to hide all the feelings and effections . .

as if you're not good enough,
but everyone around you is oh so perfect.
you hold on and become very tough. .
hopeing that everything goes by fast but yet your scared of what it will effect.

you only have strength to wish for a better tomorrow,
you use all your faith & all your sorrows
nothing left but that image in that mirror,
wondering what is deep inside,
but only leaves you with a tear. .

but there on your face was that fake smile that was applied. .
you make a wish on a shooting star ,
hopeing things will be different,
but everything is the same no matter where you are.

that mirror may show the image of you ,
but it doesn't show the image inside that you may hide .
the mirror may tell alot about what you look like on the outside,
but it will never show the true image of you , it will never show the feelings you hold beneath your heart. .

you can't judge a person by the image of them,
you can only try to look beyond that face,
beyond what the first impression. .

people always say first impression is the best way to look for in a person,
but to me that's not true.
you can't tell who they really are by there first impression, because if they are having a bad day that could effect who they really are.
it could change there whole perspective on things, and it could show you someone they really arent. People often say its the best way to look at a person, but if there upset about somthing we usually look past that and judge them we don't take enough time to ask what's wrong ,
and get to know there true image, everyones beautiful in there own way, and sometimes we don't take time to let people speak what they have to say.
what they may be feeling in those moments that slowly pass by.

we just think it's easier to judge them, for who they might be, then to actually take these precious moments and get to know the real person they are.
people often say lieing is easier than to tell the truth,
and thats what people do when they have a bad day, but we need to realize that no ones perfect , and that everyone is beautiful and are here for a reason.

so next time when you look in that mirror,
know that everyone is beatiful ;
and inside is the true beauty that lies. .

don't change for the ones around,
don't fear the things people may think,
because everyone is different but yet so beautiful inside.

feelings hide everything...

people are often left behind the ones who are blinde. .

somethings you say, may have the power to hurt people. .

do you ever feel out of place,
like somehow, somewhere you just don't belong.
you wana run, you wana hide and meet a new face. .
and you just wana forget that song. .

the song that lead you to tears,
left you empty and hopeless inside,
hidden inside were found only your fears,
all you remember is his shallow heart filled with pride.

most people out there are in there own world
they forget about others around,
it's as if there never to be found. .

they forget that there not the only ones out there,
while others are hurt and it just isn't fair.

they walk around as if there the only important ones to be found ,
when there's a whole world ahead of them,
and there are beautiful people everywhere,
people are usually just to blinde to realize so little things they may miss.

there scared of the fame that they could lose,
but not scared for others who hold all the pain .

they hide it in there eyes,
only to tell all of the lies, everyone is a person and should be treated that way,
were all different inside but thats what makes us people.
but deep inside we sometimes forget about the others around who may not make a suddle sound but deep down they want to be noticed aswell . .

it's as if they are living a shadow of people, like they are seen, but people get to distracted to actually see right through them, they may look at them but in those minutes they don't take enough time to actually see them for who they are. .

we all feel as though we don't belong,
but in a matter of time people will prove you wrong.

you may feel like still running away,
like you're out of place, and just don't belong,
that you're never right only wrong. .
you wana run, you wana hide,
you wana leave this place behinde. .

but reality hits you,
just like a raindrop from the sky,
you wish that feeling you held inside wasn't so true,
you're stuck there wondering why. .