Consume me from the inside out,
Lord take away my fears.
Let all the hurt and pain just fall to the ground and dissapear.

Open my eyes Lord to the things you see,
Open my heart Lord to the things you feel.
Mold me Lord, Consume me.
I will neal for you.
Open my ears to the things you say,
Shine your light around me day after day.

Show me there is more than this Lord, Show me there is more.
Fill my heart with Joy and love, erase the doubts that surround me,
For more like you is who i want to be.
Lord fill empty spaces,
change empty faces,
Lord shine your light & surround me in your grace.

Change the person i am and want to be to the person you want me to be.
I give you my all,
Lord I give you my all just like you give me your all.

<3

People make mistakes, we all do. It's what makes us human, and in the end i think our weaknesses really make us stronger, underneath it all mistakes gives us more strength than anything they make us stronger. . and we all have our fair share in making those mistakes but in the end it takes courage and strength to go beyond those mistakes and weaknesses and see beyond them. See the beauty beyond the darkness. Behind every darkness there is a light, and it is shining we just have to find it.

We all have weaknesses, but behind every weakness there is a strength that counts so much more and we are just to busy trying to figure out how to fix our weakness we don't see the strength that comes with it.

In everyone of us lies a great potential, and we may not know what that is right now but we will find it soon. It's all apart of finding out who we really are. It just takes time and everyone of us are great we just sometimes get caught up in the lies that the world tell us that we don't believe it anymore. It tares us down when really we need to be lifted up.

Somedays i feel like i am the only one struggleing, when i'm not with you. Not until today i realized that there's still that hope that i can never let go of, because even though you're so close yet so far you are still here, you are. You're still apart of this world, apart of my world. I may have lost you for a little while, but in the end i still have you, i still am holding onto you. I've learned that a goodbye doesn't hurt unless you are never saying "hi" again. I atleast have my chances with you you're still apart of this world, apart of my world.
And when my world comes crashing down, i will not lose that hope i have for you because deep within i know you are strong & i know you will hold on.

You are still apart of this world,
You are still apart of my world.
Sometimes i forget that, because distance and broken promises come between but i'm learning eachday to hold that hope hold on with all my might. For this is a battle i know you can fight.

You are still apart of this world,
you are still apart of my world.

I Love You.

Out Of Reach.

Because you did mean them in that moment, and even if you woke up today and you didn't mean them or right now thinkin about it you don't mean it , doesnt change the fact that you meant it in that exact moment.

just because we have hate isn't an excuse for some things we say. I think it comes down to a certian extent. We do have some control to decide whether or not to say certian things or not, but in that moment we sometimes mean the things we say.

you know out of all the things i want you to do, you pick the one i want the least i've asked you to appriciate me and be here for me, i've asked you to come to an understanding of how much i love you and how much i need you around, i've asked you to change the person you are and really deep down inside i know i can't do that only he can, i've asked you to love me like you're suppose to, and the one thing you choose to do is leave everytime.

Now when i think about it, i'm out of reach.
You're so close, yet so far away.
I'm reachin'out, reachin'up, & reachin'in,
but i'm still out of reach.

I don't mind, I don't care aslong as you're here.

I have a faith & hope that always keeps me truckin' along. .

It's like a rush of wind that hits me so hard, it empties my insides and makes me feel alone. Makes me feel worthless.
It comes at me all at once, leaving me questioning your mistakes. Leaving me leaving you. It leaves me broken, and shattered feelin'like i just lost you. Feelin'like i just don't know you anymore.
It's like a rush of wind that hits me so hard all in one. My confidence is left behind, my hope is fading, everything i have for you is leaving. Every lie you told surrounds me, every wasted night makes me wonder. But something is there and it makes me hold on longer. It pulls the wind off my shoulder, calms the air i breathe in, leaving me slowly just to find myself surround in grace.

I'll always have this one question set upon my heart, chasin' the answers that sadly are impossible to answer.. "why are you so close, yet so far". I'm not so sure if i'll ever be able to have the answer to that question, but i'm still tryin' i'm still hopin' & i'm still believing.

yesturday i felt good.
today was different, it was a different kinda feelin' good day.

Today i decided that the harsh words people say do not matter for it is a lie, but the good things they say matter the most because it's what keeps me moving.

Today i realized that not everybody's comments matter. Not everyones comments are what you deserve to hear. It takes the strength to get through those moments of put downs, those moments of wrong. Those simple moments of lies.
People say things sometimes to make theirselves feel better, to make theirselves look better for the world. When really it's not what the world thinks of you. People can put others down everyday, and it doesn't get them anywhere higher in life. People can say harsh things that hurt and all it does is leave a wound. What right are you doing, when you're constantly putting others down, saying harsh & deep words that cut the core, what right are you doing when you make someone cry, when you suddently change their "perfect day" to the worst day. What good are you doing? What's the point. I don't understand why we tare people down, when we're all people. Why do we say harsh things , why do we hurt people. The only reason we hurt is because we hurt others too. We're just people, just everyday people trying to make sense of this uncertain life, that is just like a puzzle. We're all trying to find out who we are, we can't do that when people keep putting people down, hurting people, saying things that are not necissary. There's just no point.

And i'm sick and tired of hearing things that are better left unsaid, i'm just tired of it.

Maybe you were lost,
or maybe you were just affraid.
Either way it doesn't make what you did wrong right. It doesn't change anything. & you don't even try to fight it. Nothing will fix the mistakes you have made, only Forgivness will help you. God will fogive you if you turn to him. God will heal you, if you turn to him. Just Trust in him.
Make things better, not for me but for yourself i do have hope in you, that will never change.

I'm rootin'for you don't give up on the world for the world isn't givin' up on you.
<3

He told that little girl one day she's going to understand.
One day she's going to read the letter and finally read the truth that was hiden behind lies for all of those days.
One day she will understand.

She said, i want that one day to be today, i don't want it to be tomorrow or days later because she's been waiting her whole life for answers. She's been waiting to see what you have to say. Waiting to see if this so called "truth" isn't a lie anymore.

She's always been waiting.
Waiting is apart of her now.
Don't let her down by giving her false hope. .

Maybe he's doing the same thing as me...
maybe he wants so bad to call me, but just won't because I haven't called him... then again, maybe I shouldn't fill myself with false hope that he might just be missing me like I'm missing him.

I sit here and wonder if you'll ever understand just how much of me belongs to you. How much of me misses you. .

& Sometimes You've Gotta Love The People Who Are The Hardest To Love.

Sometimes i don't understand why we hurt,
why we hate,
and
why we lie.

I just don't get it.
and i'm not sure if i'll ever really fully understand the point of the hurt we feel.
Some people say it's what "makes us stronger" and it's a good thing but really? is it really making us stronger?
i'm not gunna lie sometimes i say it will only make me stronger, but i'm tired of it. I'm tired of saying that just to make myself feel a tiny bit better inside, just to get my hopes up and to look forward to the end result of the hurt i feel. When i never really find that end result of that specific hurt. I never find the reasons why.

The hate, why do we hate? We're all just people living in the exact same world. Were just humans trying to get by life day by one as good as we can, but we always have to bring people down. We have to hurt people, hate people. I don't think it's necissary and there is no point because at the end of the day it's what counts the most not the stupid hate we feel toward people, it's the love that counts at the end of the day. It's what gives us that hope. Hate just brings you down.

And the Lies, i would ask why do we lie, but this is simple. We lie just so then noone will find out the truth about ourselves, they won't figure you out. We lie to hide the shame we feel, the mistakes we have made, we hide it all behind a lie. Eventually it gets bigger. Lieing is what causes the hurt & hate. It really is. Maybe not all of it but lieing deffenately helps. Sometimes i think we lie just so than we look better, we're scared. Affraid to tell the truth. We hold back. We hide behind lies, just to get by.

I just don't know if i'll ever fully understand it.
I just don't know. .

Everything's gunna be alright.
Everything is finally gunna be okay..

As i hold on to hope, i know.

I'm holding on tight, givin in to no fights
for i know what is right.

I'm holding on.

All i need is you.

In everyone of us lies a great potential, Let God show you yours for it is there. God has a great plan for every one of our lives but on order for you to realize what the plan for your life is you got to let him in. You gotta let him in. It's the most beautiful thing, he's the most beautiful thing.
Let him shine through in all that you do.

I have a hope for him, i really do.
Somedays are worse than others, and some days are better.
I have a prayer for him, i really do.
I have a love for him, i really do.
I really do..

I try my best to hold onto those things, i really really do.
It gets hard, and sometimes easier. It switched back and forth but i'm always holding on to the hope i have for him.
I'll always love him, even for the times he's not here.
Even at times he's not even near.
I'll always love him,
I'll always root for him,
I'll always keep this hope i have for him.

<3

My Prayer..

Heal the hearts that hurt,
Take away the pain they hold in.

Fill their hearts with joy, fill them new.
Fill the emptyness.
Everyone press through,
Give them hope, & give them faith.

Clean their hearts and make them new. Show them the answer, for it is you.
Take away the hurt, the rejection, the fear, the lost hope, the doubt, take it all away and fill them with the hope, with the faith, and with the joy , with the truth.

Show them your love, show them how to love, show them everything they need.
Fall in this place lord, Fill these hearts that ache.

Show them what it's like to be loved, show them what it's like to know a love like yours that never fails.

"Hands" Jewel.

If I could tell the world just one thing

It would be that we're all OK

And not to worry 'cause worry is wasteful

And useless in times like these

I won't be made useless

I won't be idle with despair

I will gather myself around my faith

For light does the darkness most fear

My hands are small, I know

But they're not yours, they are my own

But they're not yours, they are my own

And I am never broken

Poverty stole your golden shoes

It didn't steal your laughter

And heartache came to visit me

But I knew it wasn't ever after

We'll fight, not out of spite

For someone must stand up for what's right

'Cause where there's a man who has no voice

There ours shall go singing

My hands are small I know

But they're not yours, they are my own

But they're not yours, they are my own

I am never broken

In the end only kindness matters

In the end only kindness matters

I will get down on my knees, and I will pray

I will get down on my knees, and I will pray

I will get down on my knees, and I will pray

My hands are small I know

But they're not yours, they are my own

But they're not yours, they are my own

And I am never broken

My hands are small I know

But they're not yours, they are my own

But they're not yours, they are my own

And I am never broken

We are never broken

We are God's eyes

God's hands

God's mind

We are God's eyes

God's hands

God's heart

We are God's eyes

God's hands

God's eyes

We are God's hands

We are God's hands


I Love This Song. .

Church
is
the
hope
of
the
world
<3

The Ultimate Disciple.

The Ultimate Disciple is one who :

Seeks Jesus in everything he or she does.

Submits to authority

Servent hood

Humbles himself

Gives God all of the glory

Follow's Jesus's plans before the worlds

Takes leaps of Faith

Loves others before himself

Merciful

Seeks out his/her gifting

Loves the people who are hardest to love

Sees the image of christ in everyone

Invited people to church

Worships God in purity

Non-spiritual fatness

Be true for who you are

Be accountable

Honey, I love your love the most.

I wanna be all that i'm meant to be,
I wanna be me.

I wanna see the way you see.
I wanna feel the way you do.
I wanna know something new.

I wanna learn your every word.
I want a love that will never change
I want to hear what you've heard.
Isn't it strange,
a love that will never change?

I wanna find my place,
I wanna feel your love,
I wanna surround myself in your grace,
I wanna see you from up above.

I wanna praise you for ever,
I wanna run to you, with everything,
I never want to lose you.
I wanna be healed from all of this aching,

I wanna keep you,
I wanna feel healing from your touch,
I wanna find peace in everything you do,
I wanna love like you so much.

I wanna see the world the way you see it,
I wanna know your hearts desire for me
I wanna know your love is permanent,
I wanna be all that i can be.

I don't want this to be temporary,
I want this to be permanent.

I know it will be.
I wanna be all that i'm meant to be,
I wanna be me.

I am so blessed to have Jordan in my life, for not only a friend, but my boyfriend.

You're an amazing guy, and God really does shine through in all that you do.

I thank the Lord everyday for you, for your love, and your care, and your honnesty, and your trust and I thank him for blessing me with you.

You really do mean the world to me,
I Love You Jordan.

<3

Just A Little Somethin'

She's like an anchor in lifes storms.
When the world comes crashin' in, and chaos rules my mind i turn to her and that's when love i find.

She lifts me out of trouble,
She comforts me in pain.
It is her who stops the storm and rain.

Shes the most beautiful girl inside and out,
she's always there for me, through all my fears & doubts.

I can't imagin my life without a bestfriend like her.

This world is a dark and lonely place sometimes and is filled with so much chaos to not to have a best friend.

I Love You Kayla Brophey.

I never told you,

I just held it in.

I never told you,

I just ignored it.

I never told you,

The way i felt.

I never told you,

The way i hurt.

I never told you,

The way i miss you.

I never told you,

The way you hurt me.

I never told you,

The betreyal i feel.

I never told you,

The way the promises you make & break make me feel.

I never told you,

The way i still love you,

I never told you,

I never stuck up for myself,

I never realized,

I never wanted to realize.

I never wanted this to be true.

I never wanted or expected to feel the way i do inside.


I Never told you what i should have,
I Just Held It In.