Jesus said,
"keep on asking, and you will be given what you ask for.
Keep on looking, and you will find. Keep on knocking, and the door will be opened. For everyone who asks, receives. Everyone who seeks finds."

Matthew 7:7-8a

I never knew the one thing i could ever want was so hard to have..

I want you to be in control of yourself, not alcoholism. I want you to be able to see yourself through your own eyes, and not the eyes of alcoholism. Once you see yourself with your own eyes and not the eyes of alcohol, you will want to get better. I want you to see that it's not you that hates you, it is the alcoholism that hates you.

I want you to learn that you are a good person, i want you to learn how to take control away from alcoholism you can do this, you can become the person you truely are again. Right now you do not have the power alone to take back control of yourself. You need someone to hold on to, so grab a hold of the one person who can help you through this the one and only person, God. He is by your side every day he knows what you see when you look in the mirror, he knows the way you feel once you take that drink, he knows your every thoughts. God knows the pain you strive to get through, he knows your dreams and your hopes. Let him heal you, Let him teach you, let him make you stronger and transform you into the person his heart desires you to be. Because that person is beautiful.

Let God into your life, because all he will do is bless you and give you everlasting love. No one can change the person you have become, only you and God can. Let him in, and work together to get through this. Without my God in my life i wouldn't know where i would be today, he's not only my God, but he is my heavenly Father who walks by my side every second of the day. He has blessed me in so many different ways, i want you to let him bless you. Just let him in. He will shine a light through your darkness, he will take all that pressure and burdens off of your shoulders, he will make you whole again, he will heal the hurt and renew your heart. You have to stop letting alcoholism take over you and your body, it is changing you into a totally different person than you really are. To stop letting it control you, you need to let God into your life. He can open the doors to a new beautiful life that you have been missing out on. He can open your eyes to the unseen. Only he can show you who you really are, if you just let him do his work.

He will hold you in his arms
he will never reject nor betray you,
he will give you everlasting love
he will make you stronger and give you unfailing faith.

For My God never leaves me. He stands by me and always loves me.
Let Him do the same for you.
For i love you with all my heart, stop the alcoholism from coming between us because as much as it already has, i still love you. I just hate what it is doing to you. You're better than this. Let God show you.

<3

I've learned there was nothing i did wrong to cause it,

and i've learned there is nothing i can do to change it.

• Danielle Houston.

Just a little something . .

We all have our weaknesses, and we most deffenately all have our stories, and reasons why.
We don't need someone reminding us of all of our weaknesses , what we need is someone there showing us our strengths, and showing us how much better we are. It comes to a certian extent where we're all trying to meet other peoples standards when really we shouldn't be , what we should be doing is living in his standards. Gods standards, not one anothers.

Having weaknesses just make you stronger. Because its not until you over come that weakness when you feel a weight lifted off your shoulders, knowing you accomplished something you never thought you could. Knowing that, that one thing you use to call a "weakness" only in the end made you stronger.

There's always something good that comes from the bad. We just have to believe it, until we see it.
God has a plan in all of our lives, we're all different. That's how God created us, and there's always a different story behind our lives, that we have lived, or have still left to live. When bad things in life happen to us, there's always something good either that comes from that or comes with that. It's having the faith in believeing that when you actually notice it. Things are taken forgranted way to much .

Some kids have nothing, they have no food, no water, no family and most of all they don't have God in their lives.
Yet there's people like us who have food, who have money, who have water, who have a family and have God in their lives. Yet we come to a instand thought that we have nothing? Or that we need more?
How is that possible?
It's not.
God is the only thing you need in life to survive. He will be there if you call out to him he'll come running to you. You just have to hold on. He will bless you with things you could not even come to imagine. He'll give you hope and he'll give you faith. He will give you light through the storm your going through. He's always been here.

Kids that don't have anything strive for hope. They hold on.
and when something doesn't go right for us we only come to a point where were letting go?

People out there in the world starve, starve for food, for God, and for life.
We take things forgranted.
I can admit it, i take things forgranted, and we waste.

We say we've been there a thousand times, the hurt we feel, the pain that comes your way. It is hard, but walking down a city street seeing people with nothing. Nothing at all. For me,That is the pain that hurts the most. Knowing theres other people out there in this world striving to be loved, and yet we walk by them as if theres nothing there?

How could we possibly do that?
fear from ego? fear from others around? fear of them? There people, we're all people trying to find a place in this world, trying to find ourselves.

The guy sitting on the sidewalk in the pooring rain, feeling nothing but the pain. He never thought that he would be that guy sitting there. Thinking about where his life has gone. So he started praying for a second chance. Now he knows you only get one shot, you only get one chance, to find out the one thing that you don't want to miss.
One life to love.
God.

Giving someone a hand, when they need help wont hurt.
seeing someone in pain, sititng in the pooring rain.
That will hurt.

I'm running.

Run
Run so fast,
Run
Don't look into the past.

Run as if noones behind you,
Run
Run like sometihing out there's true.

Run to him, jump in his loving arms.
If you had to take a hundred steps to reach him, all you would have to do is take one step and he'd take 99 more steps to get to you.
If you run for him, he'll be there with open arms and a heart filled with joy and forgiveness.

Lay down everything,
let it go.

Surrender to him for he will never reject you, nor betray you.
he wants you to be the person he desires you to be,

the question is - do you want to be that person?

strive for forgiveness,
strive to be better than who you've been .
Strive for change,
and strive to be that change.

Someone told me:
"You're different from others around , you're different.
I know noone's the same but you my child are different.
someday you're going to change the lives of others."

May not know how or when yet , but that's apart of this life you're apart of.
trying to find yourself, and find who you are destined to be and do.

It all lays out perfect in the hands of God.

Unlimited posibilities.

The majority of us have been trying desperately to prove our worth. We try to prove our worth to our parents, teachers, friends and lovers. we become so absorbed in meeting their standards that we eventually miss out finding our own potential.

To focus our lives in proving ourselves to others is not only a loosing battle but a waste of time.

The downside of proving your worth to others is that different people have different standards of what being worthy means. Being obsessed to prove your worth to another person is to give that person control in your life.
How many persons are you trying to prove your worth?

To discover and realize Gods plans for our lives is to open ourselves to unlimited possibilities that we have not even come to imagine; Let the seed of greatness that God planted in us grow.

The road of greatness is the path to discover our God given gifts. We need to stop trying to meet other peoples standards and start living in his.

In everyone of us lies a great potential.
You do not need to prove it.
It is There.
What you need to do is live it.

unlimited possibilities awaits.

Certainty.

I've come to a realization that it is pathetic how a fathers daughter is always incredibly nervous before she gets to see him.
How the certainty of protection from her father isn't so much certain anymore?
How seeing him regularily isn't certian either?
How changing him isn't certian

but loving him is certian, that daughters father will always be loved no matter what happens, through his faults and flaws she still loves him .

a daughters love for her father is un explainable - even though you may not have a father daughter relationship that anyother girl has you still learn to go on with life with what you do have.

stop focusing on the things you do not have and start thanking God for what he has Blessed you with.
in life Some things are fortunate.
The relationship you may not have with your father is temperary for the relationship with your father above is everlasting.

The love and affection your earthly father may not show will cause pain - inwhich will hurt.
but Your heavenly father will show love through your flaws and he will show affection. He will dim the hurt and pain, he will open your mind & heart .

All the nervousness you felt before will fade.
Because our Heavnly father will mold you into that stronger person you are striving to be.


The certainty of protection from your heavnly father is certian.
He will always be by your side never forget that.

Falling Out Of Line, With You By My Side The Entire Time.

Every now and then i fall out of line,
but what conforts me and keeps me on my feet is knowing you'll always be by my side.
Mold me into that person your hearts desire wants me to be.

you know It's not alright to feel like you're falling into nothing,
you can learn to fly, just call his name, just call his name.

where do we go, call out his name
lift up our hands completely ashamed, give it all up
dropping our pride, rip us apart, change us on the inside.

why be affraid of this beautiful life, it's a gift to us.
a beautiful gift inwhich we take forgranted.
we don't give enough.

we don't give enough to him.
Who stood before the cross took in all that pain.
Jesus saved us - he heals the bruised and crushed.

we don't give enough praise to the one who is always loving us.
who is always forgiving us.

I don't understand how Jesus never betrays us but yet we always seem to betray him?
we betray him and his word, and then we crawl back looking for forgiveness. Praying that we'll recieve forgiveness.
Jesus always forgives us for our sins if we commit to it and ask for forgiveness.
Now there's a differenece between betraying him and his word once but then to do it once again . . and soon becomes a pattern inwhich keeps repeating it's self. If you betray him once learn from that betrayal - learn that Jesus loves you and he will give you his forgiveness but it comes to an extent where you have to learn to follow him and his word.

Call out to him if you feel alone, if you think you can do this alone think again.
Because truefully you can't do this alone. You need him there ; he is your strength when you are weak, he's that treasure you want to seek.

in the tough moments Jesus is your jewel, to give up - well that would just make you a fool . .

where do we go, call out his name
lift up our hands, completely ashamed give it all up
dropping our pride, rip us apart, change us on the inside. .

things.

I miss your laugh,
I miss your smile,
I miss your big brown eyes,
I miss your hugs,
why does this have to end with goodbye.
I miss your "good mornings"
I miss your "good nights"
I miss your face, your everything

you're leaving grace leaves me in pain.
you're simple smile & laughter use to keep me sane now a piece of me is gone
leaving me singing this song.

I miss your laugh,
I miss your smile
I miss your big brown eyes
it's been awhile ,
I miss your hugs,
I miss your "good mornings"
I miss your "good nights"
I miss your face, your everything.
when i was lost in the dark, you showed me the light.

every night i go to sleep, i pray to god the ambulence walks over to me and says " he's okay, he'll be okay" .
I'm holding on to the pain i felt that day.
refusing to let it go, knowing i should.
barely breathing, but knowing there is healing.

God has a plan for everything and everyone. He's that one preson who's there when all fails, when people leave you all alone, when rejection comes your way, when hurt and pain become apart of you, when doubt and fear rises over you, when you think you lost your strength, and is weak, you just have to seek that God who brought you here, who never betrays you. That God who is true. Things happen in life for many different reasons, and as us people we're always trying to figure out those reasons, without answers it's as if we can't move on? We're left in the exact same place not moving on without those answers. There comes a time when you have to soon move on, life doesn't always give you the answers you may be looking for and striving to find, but moving on will release some pain you may be holding. If your mind stays in that "scene" of your life, or time in your life your stuck with all the pain, and hurt.

Everyone is setting them selves up for heart ach and pain, we just don't realize it.
When you're so close to a person they become apart of you, there heart is your heart, when they are hurting you hurt, when they are happy you are happy. It's just who we are and letting someone in and letting them know you and knowing them brings love to eachother. Whether it's family or friends no matter what in the end you set yourself up for heart ach and pain,

reality is sooner or later they will be gone, and that person who was now apart of you is gone so it's as if a piece of you is missing. You can't dwell in that pain forever though, because it just makes it hurt more. The heart can and will heal if you let God do his work.

He is always loving and is always there, so why do we reject him and reject his love, why do we take things forgranted and take him forgranted. All he wants to do is love us and be there for us.
He wants to fill our hearts when there broken, he wants to fill us with joy and love.

so what i've learned over a few months is that no matter what you struggle with, what pain you may be faceing, what regrets you may have, or what breaks your heart, God is there to heal you.
& God has a reason for every little thing that happens.

My Grandpa Played A Big Role In My Life. <3

Tears streamed down my face when I saw you that way.
I love you grandpa, I will love you everyday.
As my tears raced down my face;
I knew you'd soon be in a happier place.
My love will follow you wherever you go.
Oh how I loved you so.
Although I feel sorrow and hate.
You can’t fight fate.
You told me everything as time passed by and by.
I never wanted you to die.
We did a lot together throughout the years.
It’s time to wipe away the tears.
I want you to know;I will never let you go.
I know you loved me too.
My heart will always be with you.
Now it’s time to say goodbye.
Until I see you again someday when I die.

Hang On To Her. .

Hanging by a thread

or as it seems

in a moment, dashed,

are all our dreams

life can take a turn

and then a swerve

spinning in a circle

around a curve

hanging to the rope

she fights for life

shouting to be heard

above the strife

hold on, God, please

don't let her go

hanging on to her

just let her know

that she can relax

and lean on you

you're the only one

to get her through

carry her along

don't let her fall

not until she's given

you her all. .

Burning Bridges . .

Along the road
you miss a turn
you go to far
you end up burned
one wrong choice
you lose your way
you continue on
when you should stay
without a compass
you stub your toe
you don't recall
the way to go
don't burn the bridge
that you must cross
when you realize
all that's lost
you can go back
there's time to turn
God can restore
the bridge that burned.

Rescue Him. .

On the streets, down and out
burnt and broke and full of doubt
out of luck and out of time,
buddy, could you spare a dime?
sagging spirits, hopeless eyes
bum a buck with see-through lies
looking down, a sideways glance
afraid to try, to take a chance
God, reach out your loving hand
help him see and understand
your love can give a clean, fresh start
your love can fill an empty heart
your love can make his life brand new
help him give his heart to you. .

Friends & Family. . <3

I Love My Friends & Family,
without them with me as the days go on i wouldn't know where i'd be.
They teach me so much, and they probably don't even know it.
Having a friend there for you all the time is the greatest feeling you'll ever have.
The trust and faith in that person to not let you down, always being there by your side through the tears, the laughs, the sad moments that pass on by, and the happy moments you expierence each & every day.

The loved ones in our life are more special than we think, sometimes we take things forgranted but friends and family are the one thing we cherrish forever. We set ourselves up for heart ach, pain and hurt. Through our days we gain more trust in the people we love, it's almost as if they become apart of you and no matter what you do they're never letting you go. There weakness becomes yours, there strength now becomes yours. There everything is now apart of you. They hold so much trust in you that no matter what you do right or wrong, they're the ones by your side through every second of regret, shame, happieness, joy, tears you shed, and smiles you shine, they're the ones you turn to or they turn to you. The hurt and pain we set ourselves up for is a risk in trust and faith. It's all left in the relationship you withhold with that person. The trust you gain with them. Friends & family bring the greatest joy in our lives, they are the sun in the storm we may be going through, they are the ones who make us believe when really we think there's nothing else to believe in.

and honnestly
i wouldn't trade it all for the world. Because to me my friends & family are the world.

Sharpness - Lost.

As i am sitting here, trying to see through the clear window,

the sound of wind blowing by,

leaves you in settle sigh,

thinking of every little thing you know. .



The birds begin chirping,

the sounds around lingering,

lights turn out leaving you in what's left - doubt.



Theres a beauty behind it,

sun shining down, refusing all darkness,

nothing else in that moment could be found,

the sharpness of your pains, striking through your veins.



The wind blows feeling like it wont end,
The darkness shows, and the light fades away into the lost sky,
filled your heart and body shakeing wondering why. .

heart skips a beat,
no words being heard
no breath beneath
leaving you speechless in those moments of dark ;
leaving your place inwhich use to be your mark

Lost under the Darkness,
no where to run,
like a corn field, lost your trace and can't get out,
you run so fast but can't see that face that left you with a smile,
you begin to say you'll wait that while until you find the one way out.

because life is a maze.
life is paitent
life is sometimes dark
life shows the light
life is beautiful . .

Hold on because everything will change.

The pain striking through your veins , let it go.

soon you'll see change.

Sunday.

I walk into that hospital, so quiet.

I keep walking towards my grandfathers room, hopeing and praying an emptieness fills me.

I get to the room and glance over,

A doctors voice in the distance asks "are you looking for the man from that room"

i slowly grasp some air and said yeah do you know where i could find him?

The doctor said he's up in the ICU. And gave me directions on where do go, she had a tone in her voice that left me there in fear.



I walk back towards that elevator feeling like theres something missing. I keep walking up to the next floor inwhich the ICU is at, as i walk by the front desk another voice hits me and says are you lost ? do you need me to show you where to go? Right there hit me, i am lost, i don't know where to go, not only to find my grandfather but in life general.

As she points to the room he is in so settle, she tells me my grandmother awaits in there by his side, i join them .



I sat in the hospital , so quiet. My grandmother stareing around the room, holding onto my grampa not having the strength to let go. I glance over at my grampa laying there so gentle but yet fear fills the room, i am trying to make sense of it all, our throats feel like the ocean filling up with water, splashing arouns as if waves were riding up and down our throats, makeing it difficult to breath, makeing us choke, unable to say words but feels so empty inside.

Minutes turn to hours as we sit and pray,
a body in the hospital bed so settle as he lays.

nothing will change the love we have for him,
and the love he has for us, as each day goes on we continue to pray. . .

Everything will be okay .
<3

Each Day We Die A Little Inside. .

Every day we face different challenges, challenges inwhich sometimes can never be changed.
challenges that we never want to be face to face with again.
challenges that make you lose faith.
challenges that leave you settle, lost beneath your pain.
everything now seems so unsafe. .

People suffer and people struggle.
some people have it all ,
& others are at the edge begining to fall;

some people find it hard to understand why people are taken away ;
why people lie,
why people are fake,
why people are affraid of their own reality ,
why people are affraid of themselves,
and most of all why are people affraid of their own feelings. .

you can't love if you're affraid to feel,
you can't have faith if you're affraid of you're self,
&you just can't live if you're affraid of reality.

Reality is that each day each one of us dies a little inside.
losing faith losing pride. we're all dieing ;

every night we go to sleep is a day that we can never get back.
Every morning we wake up is another day that's going to pass by so quickly and at the end of that day we won't have it back again. We wont be able to take back the things we may have done.

We have to hold on to the moments we have right now, because things come and they go.
Life comes & it goes. We will never know what tomorrow may bring. We can only hope for another ; Even though we lose a piece of us each day we have to learn to carry on.

Love hurts.
Feelings are disturbing.
People are taught that pain is evil and dangerous.
Pain is meant to wake us up.
People try to hide their pain.
But they're wrong. Pain is something to carry Something to expierience.
Pain is a feeling.
Your feelings are a part of you.
Your own reality.
If you feel ashamed of them, and hide them, you're letting other things destroy your reality.

Make the best out of the reality you are living, because things change so quickly and things get taken away and soon there is no tomorrow. Love what you have, Love what you're living, Love the people you have. Don't take where you are & who you are with forgranted because you'll never know when those moments and those people may change. You'll never know when they will be gone .

You are only one person, there are millions out there whether there happy, sad, angry, hideing, or dieing you're only one. And Your One out of many who are feeling the exact same way.

Everyone is happy,
Everyone is sad,
Everyone is agngry,
Everyone is hideing
and through this all,

everyone is dieing a little inside each day. . .

THUNDER & LIGHTNING HIT THE EARTH.

Oh the sky light dims,

the dark comes out leaving you with fear & doubt.

The sun hides away,

leaving you empty minded waiting for another day ;

comeing and going, which ever way the thunder hits, the lightning strikes.

matches all around are soon lit,

gravity soon works against you,

it wants to bring you down,

but hold on to the things you know are true,

erase that sound your ears can't get enough of,

because the lightning & thunder comeing from above

won't last forever, it will come & go.

beneath the lightning and thunder beauty will show,

fear will overcome,

but it will always go. .

Thunderstorms come, the lit night sky fades to grey,

everyone holds strength as they lay.

lightning hits the ground, leaving a lingering sound ; not knowing when it will end,

beneath the sound, beneath the fear,

is something so beautiful but yet not found.

leaving some of us in a peaceful tear. .

even though your left in chaos and the sound is so loud and obnoxious,

underneath is a peace that we always run from. We always hide but yet chaos and fear will always be our friend. . we can't run from the things that will never dissapear. .

Take Off. .

As we abord the plane, and find our seats we remember what were leaving behind;

we sit down & soon realize what we're out to find. .

The plane takes off ,
The voice speeks " please be seated and fasten seatbelts for take off " you suddenly sit there in settle thought.

as the plane begins to move at a settle pace,

you begin to picture in your mind a beautiful face,

the one you are now leaving behind.

The plane now leaves the gravel lane,

leaving your past, leaving your pain.

leaving every regret, even the things you thought you'd never forget.

As the clouds fly bye you, you feel as if no harm can touch you, as if for a split second you may be safe.. That doesn't last long . .

Now you feel it comeing back again, you feel the turbulence in your life come rushing in, the storm is just set out into that lonely sky, waiting for it to stare right between your lost eyes.

The confusion comes in, it's like a strong felt wind.

you sit in your seat, affraid to move, affraid to see.

Eyes closeing gently as the turbulence sets on in, not knowing what to believe. .

That safe okay feeling is fadeing like the sunset. . so quickly'

You fasten that seatbelt,

wishing fear was never felt. .

10 minutes goes by, the shakeing, the sound, could not profound.

the fear inwhich is all around .

Nothing can stop this, only time.

& What Happens Next. .

At last begin to loosen.

Far from the exchange of love to lie

Unreachable insided a room

The traffic parts to let go by

Brings closer what is left to come

And dulls to distance all we are. .

-

I see an ambulence rush by,

I hold my breath and only sigh

wondering how much time they have ?

wondering how many hearts are bound to break hearing the news they cannot take. .

the images that go through their head over & over again

wanting something to take away from this moment ,

anything but "then" .

I can't imagine the pain they feel, the pain they engage as they hear that doctor say ,

"we never thought it could end this way" . .

cant imagine the hope they have now lost, the dreams that boy cannot persue,

all the hearts that only break,

& that one heart thats left in shame as he lived but lost a friend.

He couldn't save,

and now they have to lay him down into that grave.

feeling destroyed hope, feeling broken hearts.

sorrys dont make a difference when reality hits. .

That drunken driver on the road,

killed an innocent soul who deserves way more,

why couldn't he of known the hurt he may cause as he leaves that bar with nothing but a drunken mind, not noticing the other people on the road, not noticing anything around '

everything in his eyes is spinning and only surrounds.

Leaving him sliding into a car

not makeing it far until he realized what pain he has caused.

Windows shattered, lights slowly fadeing as he falls asleep ;

thinking nothing ever could be oh so deep,

but the love of a family in fear of an uncertian hurt

not knowing if he can be saved .

I see an ambulence rush by,

I hold my breath and only sigh,

Wondering how much time they have?

Wondering how many hearts are bound to break hearing the news they cannot take. .

The images that go through their head, over & over again,

Wanting something to take away from this moment

anything but "then".

I feel b a d for the guy who caused this all,

i feel bad for the guy who is going to fall.

He has nothing to say all his shame is slowly takeing over . .

knowing this end is somthing you never want to see .

& knowing this end is somthing you never want to believe nor feel .

Try not to let go. .

Hold on,
for you'll never know when things could change.
Change is never easy, you fight to hold on.
You fight to let go.

Hold up.
Hold on don't be scared you'll never change what's been and gone.

Little girl there is hope. .

A little girl walks down that street every day & night
the little girl glances at her feet holding on to the only thing she has...

hope.

as she walks through the rain,
through the snow,
through the sleet,
through the thunder,
through the lightning
all she has left to do is wonder. .

what is it like to feel love?
what is it like to feel joy?
what is it like to feel stronger than weak?
what is it like to have people to love?
what is it like to show love?
what is it like to heal another broken heart?
what is it like to not feel pain?
what is it like to have a family?
what is it like to believe in things you may not see?
what is it like to have more than a hope of surviving?
what is it like to spend money on anything you wanted?
what is it like to fall in love?
what is it like to live in warmth and not lost on the streets?
what is it like to know your direction?
what is it like to be surrounded in perfection?

what is it like to wake up every morning with a real smile on your face, waiting for this beautiful day to begin, waiting for the laughter & love to rain down on in.
when every morning this little girl awakes, she fakes a smile that sets apon that dirty but yet so beautiful face, wondering when this episode of her life will be over, but then again realizing this is "her" life and nothing can change that reality. Realizing the pain she has and strength she with holds, the hope and faith she gains is much better than what everybody else holds in.

the missery of others around her, makes her soon realize things are given but then also things are taken, and holding onto that string of hope each day as she walks, she will never lose it. She is makeing a difference in this world every second and she doesn't even know it. Shes the reason for that question of

- how can such a little girl hold on to such big dreams & big hopes but is left there with nothing, and yet we feel broken if we don't get what we want, we feel like nothing in the world could get worse and each day we always think about ourself and our own faults & troubles when out there, there is so much else going on in the world that is more important then the little ups & downs we may feel from time to time. But that little girl holds on, and once something different and hard comes along we fall. Even if we have it all, we are the ones falling, not the little girl who holds on to hope & yet has nothing .

That little girl walks down that street everyday & night
the little girl glances down at her feet, holding on to the only thing she has left..

hope.

Breaking through that w a l l .

&maybe it's something that can't break through the wall,
are we holding back?
because we're affraid to fall..

is it something we are reaching for, that isn't in existance,
reaching out into that distance ;
because maybe we can't break through the wall,
but that doesn't leave us here to fall..

I don't want to hear your voice,

I don't want to see your face again,

I don't want to breathe you in,

I don't want to make that mistake i know i will regret,

I don't want you to make a promise, cuz' we both know you'll forget.

But maybe it's something i need more than i want, something i need to see on order to believe and move on.

As you down that whiskey, trying to take away the pain of your own so called reality, i hope it burns and makes you realize what you can not see. The pain you cause others and the pain you cause yourself. The regrets you lay apon yourself the love that i once felt.
in moments are taken away, by the way you medicate your soul. To medicate your feelings with alcohol to medicate all the shame & all that's left is pain.

I bet you're drinking your every chance away,
some things are better off not to say. .

glass of whiskey in your hand,
no one to save you from this regret you set apon yourself,
hopeing you won't fall this time, hopeing you'll land.

felt your heart beeting faster,
everytime you take that drink,
you feel that rush seconds after.

but after all,
maybe it's something that can't break through that wall,
are we holding back?
Because there's nothing letting you fall, besides yourself. .

Let go of what was, & hold on to what is.

It's the feeling where everything is fine today,
the feeling that everything will be okay,
It's the feeling of that sweet grace that lingers around you,
the feeling where love floats in the thin air inwhich surrounds you.

oh how the feeling is beautiful.

It's the fleeting hope that crosses your mind as you wonder what rejection, shame, lost, and hurt can do to someone.

The feeling where you see a little girl running down that sidewalk with nothing but a smile full of grace. As if nothing can touch her as she runs, so she keeps running, until she can't go any further. She sets her mind to a place where nothing can go wrong, suddently that feeling of rejection, shame, lost and hurt fades away. She now can only live up to another terrifying day..

The perfection of her love has been broken,
that safe feeling inside has been taken.
That trust is now hanging from her little weak fingers trying to get away,
brings back the rejection, shame, lost & hurt again thinking she can take this on.

she wants something inside to show her how to believe. .
but somethings holding her little body back, something stronger than what she can take,
all she wants to do is run, never stop she just wants to leave :

Lave this place, leave the pain, the rejection, the shame, the hurt, the lies, the tears she crys, the love that is broken, the regrets, all she wants to do is leave that place & just forget.

But apart of her will never let go,
& what she doesn't know won't hurt her as she thinks. .

but really Letting go of what was, and holding on to what is, is something incredible that, that little girl will soon see
once she opens those blue eyes she will finally believe. .

What i have learned. . <3

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Do you think one life can really make an impact on the world? Or if the choices we make matter? Personally i believe they do, and i believe one can change many lives . .

this is a little somthing that i have learned through-out this week .

One life could be a huge impact on another soul out there,
each one of us has a story, it's a story inwhich tells about us. .
it shows the beautiful moments we have, & shows the roads we go down inwhich may not be the best one, but yet it shows all the trouble we have gone through, the hurt we felt, the happiness we share, and the tears we shed.
but in this story we remember everything, whether it's the bad things we have gone through, or the great things we have experienced. .

everyone goes through the tough lane,
makes us feel rough at times but your story could impact another,
everyone goes through simular things as we all do, weather it's shame, regrets, alcohol, drugs, sex, or simply the feeling as though nothing will ever change. .

but as you listen to the sound of others voices speaking about their own life and their own story we gain trust. . We learn more about them & now we know why they may react to different things differently, because deep inside we all hide things from one another, and were scared. Scared to let that burdon down & show who we really are & what we really are. Showing others your personal story may impact another heart, may give them trust, may give them hope.

There is absolutly no shame in being affraid, hell we're all affraid. What we have to do is figure out what we're affraid of, because when you put a face on it you can beat it, better yet you can even use it. We make mistakes but that's what makes us, us . The hopes & dreams we may have, maybe isn't really what we want, i wonder this . .

if having things turn out the way you wanted them to, is only a measure of a successful life and a measure of a great life, but then some would say you are a failure. .

people watch you everyday, you are someone els's hero & sometimes we don't even know it, because were caught up in our own fantasy.
People learn from what you do right or wrong, people are there to watch you fall & to watch you gain strength to get up again, but only you can do that. Happiness is in the feeling you get when you make someone els's dreams come true, or in the promise of hope to be renewed. It's okay to have that feeling, because you never know how great that happiness may be, and how great it may effect others around.

We all hide who we are, because we are affraid that people may find out who we are before we find out ourselves. . When we don't know how much of an impact we may be on some els's life.

because we all go through the same,
& we all have regrets, but that's not the point.
Let go of the regrets, don't look back & grieve over the past, because the past is gone, don't be troubled about the future because it has not came yet, just live in the moment you have right now, and make it somthing worth remembering, because so many of us have nothing left worth remembering. .

SpringDay.

the smell of the spring air hits you in sight.
bringing no dark only light.

feeling stronger then ever,
like there's no other .

the sun shines down & the clouds go away,
all of a sudden you find those words to say. .

this may be a better day.
something has come to rescue you ,
thinking, how this could ever be true. .

soon enough the sunset glows,
& it's as if no fear could show.

the colours that lit the sky,
having that feeling as if now nothing was a lie. .

holding on to that perfect day,
hopeing it would never fade away . .
if only it were here forever to stay .

every single thing in life is temporary, because everything changes. .
but that doesn't mean to let go of the things you love.

hold onto them and if they fade, fight for em, but if that doesn't work,
learn to let go.

oh how the smell of the spring air lingers around,
looking around but yet nothing is found. .

you hear a sound echoing in the distance,
sunset slowly fadeing into the midst of the night,

remembering the voice giving it another chance. .
the grip you held on with oh how it was tight. .

fighting for what's right,
never letting go of that beautiful night.
<3>

The whole world could change in a minute. . - R a i n .

as the rain poors down a million times,
and a simple sound from hitting the ground. .

the whole world could change in a minute.

as the clouds roll in and the thunder begins at a settle paste,
listening with ears open and a simple smile on your face.

the whole world could change in a minute.

heart wide open, listening and engageing the beautiful sound,
the rain falling & hitting the ground,
the thunder takeing over and the clouds rolling over.

over & over again, hearing the sound , the beautiful sound.
embracing every single moment,

a feeling inside holding back the pride,
listening and breatheing in that moment.

the whole world could change in a minute .

you may not know it, but these are the moments that come & go.
thinking and holding on,
nothing but being strong.

hearing & breathing , listening to the thunder - the rain falling under.

Take it, & break it. - nothing special .

on a rainy day i begin to write. .

take people for who they are , not what they are.
take people for their heart, not their appearence.
take people for the feelings they hold, not the face that's so bold.

we run and we hide, only to look beyond and get inside.
take the frigtened for who they are hiding.
take the hurt for what they feel,
take the weak and make them stronger.

take the confused and let them understand;
underneath this all, take us for who we are.

take the homeless and bring them light,
take the broken, and fill them with joy.

because -

now i can't laugh, can't cry ;
and i can't run , can't hide.

after all ;
you get use to the pain, and numb until the sting,
until you can't feel anything.

you try to explain but no-one hears it,
it's as if the words were your very own tears, hiding behind the precious excuse of fear.
no,
you can't laugh, can't cry .
and can't run, can't hide..
anymore - it's like the sun when it comesout it always goes away at the end of the day .

maybe underneath it all, you're better off takeing it and breaking it.
take it all & break it, don't let something make you fall.

take eachother for who we are,
take them for what's inside,
not the appearence nore the pride.

so many people, yet so little time. .

so many people.
yet so little time. .

each one of us strives for a better day, we all medicate ourselves to try and balance the pain we feel. Only takes seconds to think why did i do the stuff i did?
Your life is pretty good, not only to your eyes but to everyone else around. Yet you realize you were only searching for something to make it great. Something to make it matter. Moments pass by where you have a chance to change the things you've done just change that and it was right there infront of you but for some reason you held back. You are frightened and just to scared to let that go.. Even thought the things you may have done, or the person you have become is wrong, you try to tell people you do not want to be that person, and you are never going to be.

Where each one of us lies, is just a place in the world. It could be exactly like a lot of peoples worlds or maybe nothing like it. But if you look closer you might see someone like you.
someone trying to find their way. Someone trying to find their place. Someone trying to find theirselves. But we are all to blinded by selfishness & dishonorableness that we can't see that. Sometimes it may seem as though you are the only one struggling, who's frustrated, or unsatisfied, or barely even getting by. But honnestly, that feeling is nothing but a lie. A lie so big that none of us are able to see through it.

.. But if you just hold on, hold on to that courage just to face it all for another day someone out there or something out there will make that feeling all okay. Time is the beauty in life, but you only got a certian amount of time until you may have to confess or give up it's up to you when that time is. . & if you're going to take the chance or not. . We all need a little help sometimes, someone to help us hear the music , the beauty in the world, something or someone to remind us that it won't always be this way. . Sometimes it is easier to see what we would want to see, then to look for the truth. People in this world today think they know so many different souls but really they don't and they don't even make an effort to. No one knows all the answers to life, or to anything anyones feeling anymore, but the least you can do is to try and make things better. But when you make a mistake because no matter what we all do, ask someone you love to help you get through it.

there are so many starving souls out there, promising their selves that if that special person is out there, they will find courage to reach out for their every dream and you could be that special person courageing them right at this moment. .

the reality to the furthest end. .

The little boy walks the lonely road
as his head faces his feet.
Through rain, snow, and hail he trails alone on an empty street.
The little girl looks for cardboard boxes
to find the right one to call her home.
She never knew the definition of a family
never had one of her own.
Young men and women with cups for coins
scavenge for pennies each day.
And what we overlook is cherished by those
who are not fortunate by weekly pay.
Life is full of chances but only if you seek.
Those who can't seem to find it is searching in the dark.
No candle or hand to guide them
They can't seem to leave there mark.
Rejection has become clear.
The only friend they have.
The far end of reality has become visible
acceptance has become unbearably sad.

Insecurity of her own.

She bows her head and closes her eyes,
as she sheds her tears aloud.
She crosses her heart and hope to die.
The truth will follow the crowd.
She sits and watches her peer’s reaction,
their every move and motion.
Their oh’s and oh my god’s
Their advice followed by their notions.
The truth of her life comes out to all.
What they didn’t know they know now.
Why the little girl laughs the loudest,
to hide the hurt and pain deep down.
Her insecurity is her shadow,
A trail of long lost hope
She feels isolated from the world
But within her mind at times she can not cope.
The corner is her shelter,
the border from her fears.
She’s haunted by each memory,
That is the cause of all her tears.
She stays silent, she keeps to herself
Hoping someday someone will understand
Waiting till that day comes.
When someone will lend a helping hand.

What is H o p e.

what exactly is hope?

is it inside a hug?
is it a kiss?
is it a snowday when the weather is bad?
is it inside a blinde boys eyes?
is it inside a starving childs faith?
is it behind a medicated soul?

is it when the stars fade away & the sun shines down?
is it when today fades away & you only live for tomorrow?

is it the pain you hold inside that only sits there & hides?
is it inside a broken heart that strives for love each day?
is it love?
is it inside a sinfull father who only betrays?
is it inside a careing mothers arms?

is it when the waves of the ocean come up on the sand & soon you feel as though nothing could ever replace this beauty and takes away the fear..
is it behind every single tear you shed?
is it in the guilt?
is it in shame that we feel ?
is it the fact we may all feel the exact same way?

is it in regrets we hold which for some reason never seem to forget?
is it that simple grace we wish would never replace?

is it inside that special voice that say's hold on?
is somewhere behind the fact that we all have to except the things we can not change?

is it beneath the fear that comes our way?
is it never giving up?

is it behind the words of beautiful?
is it behind the tears you cry to get to sleep?
is it about showing how much you care but yet getting nothing in return?
is it after giving your heart away, but only to realize its shoved right back in your face?
is it that feeling of takeing what ever you can get because you figure that something, is better than nothing at all.

is it having strength to go beyond the beauty and beyond the shame we may feel, forgiving not only others but yourself first and finding the passion to only gain more strength then to just drop it all and watch yourself begin to fall. .
because what ever doesn't kill us will only make us stronger . .

or is it about having faith that tomorrow will be a better day, because deep inside you know it will be and in the end everything will be okay.

put a side your fears & hold on to that hope you have for a new day.

just a little somthing.

Yesterday’s world wants you to enjoy its surrendering breath.
Today’s world wants you to enjoy its surrendered breath.
Tomorrow’s world wants you to enjoy its fulfilling breath.

When you do not complain, all conditions of the world are at your feet.
When you are feeling down, change that .
Life only comes once and every sixty seconds you spend complaining and worrying is one minute of life that you can never have back.

keep strength & faith close,
never let that go ..
keep happieness close,
never let that go..

when tough times come around,
hold your head up high and keep that smile
let it last for just a little while.

& don't say you can't , because someone out there knows you can.
Just go back to that place,
find that place that left a beautiful smile on your face.

When you complain what are you actually complaining about,
people out there are left somewhere with nothing,
nothing but fear & doubt.
Yet we all strive to complain of our own faults & our own lives. But not one single soul dares to think how everyone else lives & what others are going through.

we are so selfish & all that does is keep us down.
let the happieness shine,
for life is just to short of time.

for,
yesturdays world wants you to enjoy it's surrendering breath.
todays world wants you to enjoy it's surrendered breath.

&

tomorrows world wants you to enjoy it's fulfilling breath.

Being that person you want to be.

_ any fool can defend his mistakes - and most fools do. But it raises one above the herd and gives one a feeling of nobility strength to admit one's mistakes.

sometimes we all blow it. We forget plans or show up for class unprepared or trip and fall as we're walking down the hall. It's part of being human to mess up royally from time to time. Makeing those simple mistakes is apart of learning. What matters is how we deal with our mistakes. Sometimes we don't get the chance to admit our own faults, before someone else calls them out to our attention. Sometimes it's when you don't know what you really did wrong and then there's nothing you can do about it and you'll just have to work from there. But if you're trying to get out of trouble with accepting responsibility for what you've done, you may have to rethink your approach.

sometimes you may not want to "bite off more then you can chew" but that doesn't mean you should stick to baby food does it ? If you're not falling, you're not trying. Everything comes with a price weather it's wrong or right as time goes by you'll figure it out. The higher you climb the more chances there are to stumble - or fall right flat on your face. But that doesn't mean you should avoid new or scary things because you might not be good at them. Never fear the unexpected.

Be who you are, & show people who you are don't be scared to let your true identity shine. .
They won't hold anything against you. Infact they will probably admire you for admitting that your human.
but if you hold onto that bad feeling, it can drag you down.
You don't have to live with your mistakes forever, replaying them and punishing yourself over and over. If you admit them to yourself and others make a sincere apology, and try to consider how you may be able to avoid them in the future, you are free to try and fail without any overwhelming consequences.
During this you will soon learn to be that person you really want to be.

two questions & two answers. .

A friend of mine asked me two questions,
and i thought they were interesting ones so i wanted to post the questions & show you my response to them. .

1. what do you think the meaning of life is?

- I think the meaning of life is about all sorts of things, like takeing chances weather you know it's right or wrong, and learn from which ever one you take, learn to deal with different facts and things you face from day to day. It's about having honnor for the unhonnerable, and finding new places and new faces throughout the days that you live, meeting new people and seeing them for who they are not what they are. Seeing past the image of different people because were all different in different ways and seeing the inner beauty, it's about knowing no matter what we all face different tasks each day but to look past that and know you'll be okay . Most of all live life to the fullest, but honnor everyone around and you will get honnored back. Take risks and see where they lead you, have an open heart and don't decieve.
love the life that is given to you, because we take things forgranted when other people are out there with nothing. Appriciate every single thing you have because that everything, is everything special to you.
keep the special things close to heart, and if your fighting with some special , fight for them not with them, but if that's not enough then let them go.
Life is full of suprises but don't give up on this beautiful life given to us.

2. What is the most important thing a person can have?

- I think the most important thing a person could ever have, would have to be trust. Someone there by there side each day that passes by. For that person to be there to walk with them through the good and through the dark days, to know that everything will be okay because they have trust in that person. No one wants to feel alone, and that's where trust comes in, you cant have a friendship that doesn't have trust first, trusting someone is what makes a friendship only stronger. Everyone needs someone there to help them up when they feel like falling to be there with an open heart & open ears to listen to the things they may feel and hold beneath there hearts. Someone there to not be affraid to let there tears run down, when they are feeling the worst they ever have, to not be affraid of being who they really are. Beneath that all only starts with trust and it's your choice to keep it. Trusting someone is knowing that, that special person would never leave your side in the dark and will always hold on tight, knowing that they will never decieve you or betray you, and most of all letting your true identity show without any fear.

that's the beauty of trust and that's the simplest things that can get to me, so i thought that would be most important for a person to have.

just danielle. .

& sometimes the beauty is in the attempt.

you don't back down, you won't turn around,

doesn't matter what comes crashing down,

you're still going to stand on solid ground.

something different. .

okay so i usually write my own poems & stuff on here,
but i feel like i should put these song lyrics on here for anyone who is reading, it's an amazing song a good friend of mine requested this song to me and told me i should listen to it so i did and it was amazing,the words in it are so strong leaving your heart in warmth. It puts something in my heart that i can't describe. .
just read the lyrics and you will see. .
or listen to the song later it's an amazing song.

called -

hold on by 33 miles. .

I've been there a thousand times,
I've felt the rain like a thousand knives.
And it hurts,I know it hurts!
I've been there like a fighter plane,
Tryin' fly my way through a hurricane.
And it's hard,I know it's hard!
Don't be afraid, You'll make it through,
Just call out to me and I'll come running to you!
Hold on, hold on!
When the current pulls you under,
And your heart beats like thunder.
Just give me your hand,And hold on, hold on!
Until the storm is over,
And I'll be fighting for you.
Just give me your hand and,Hold on!
I'll give you hope, I'll give you faith!
And if it's dark, I'll light the way,For you, for you!
By your side, until the end,
Until you're standing tall again!
I'm here, I'll always be here.
And if the tide, sweeps you out to sea,
When your strength is gone, and it's hard to believe!
Hold on, hold on!When the current pulls you under,
And your heart beats like thunder!
Just give me your hand,And hold on, hold on!
Until the storm is over.
And I'll be fighting for you,
Just give me your hand!
so...Hold on, hold on!
When the current pulls you under,
And your heart beats like thunder!
Just give me your hand.
And hold on, hold on!
Until the storm is over,
And I'll be fighting for you!
Just give me your hand,
And hold on, hold on!

<3

Butterfly that has a desire like a burning fire. .

Do you ever wonder how that butterfly can fly.

or how can it have so much desire to fly so high.

With limited efficiency to reach the sky

is it even worth it,

or is it just takeing a chance,

if you just reach a certian height,

that may be a bit of luck,

and you may find a beautiful sight.



But if you don't, do give a second thought.

Perhaps this moment isn't worthwhile enough,

Take it easy and try it over again -

If all else fails you'll only be right back where you started from.

take a chance,

take a fall,

get back up and forget it all.

Everything around us has a desire,

the hope & desire to not fail surrounds each one of us.

the hope & desire to have a passion as strong as a fire.

to know that where ever you go, you can take a chance but forever will know

that takeing chances is what keeps us moving on.

if only you could run far away only to escape,

and find a horizion so beautiful not knowing what is in fate. .

in the light of the sun,

you're left there in settle thought,

wondering if there is anyone.



but you think of that butterfly,

how it has such a great desire to fly.

leaving with nothing but a chance ready to let go

the butterfly ready to leave the palm of your hands,

not scared of where or how it lands.

Takeing a risk and knowing if it falls that there will be something there to catch you through out it all.

desire is like a burning fire, never put out.

the question is why .

why in such short time,
people can just go a head and change there minds.
why in such short time,
the world can change from light to dark.
why in such short time,
people can lose where they stand, and lose there mark.
why in such short time,
people end up changing.
why in such short time,
people are left there judging.
why in such short time,
people don't want to wake up and face the reality.
why in such short time,
people could go blinde and not see.
why in such short time,

a heart could break,
a family could break,
a frieindship could break,
but without saying anything all you have to do is breathe in and take.
a heart hurts from another heart hurting.
a heart hurts from another one flirting,

but yet we stand in the exact same spot,
only fighting for the one who faught.

nothings so incredible then feeling that hurt stop.
when yet we all feel the exact same.

howcome you're not the one saving me. .

how could something so strong end up so wrong.
how could people change within a little amount of time,
why couldn't there have been a sign .

it was all to good to be true.
you said "i don't ever want to hurt you".
but where did that simple grace go ?
why didn't you ever let it show until now ?

oh please tell me how.

i should have seen this comeing,
i know it's never simple and never easy,
but i wish you would have warned me.

nothing felt right unless i was with you,
nothing seemed as though to fight,
unless it was for you.

where did that simple grace go,
why didn't you ever let it show until now,

oh please tell me how.

i know it's never simple and never easy,
but why couldn't you be the one saving me..

beauty.

Where does the true beauty lie?
Within the heart, not the eye
The eye deceives and the eye is blind
It is the soul where answers you will find
Not to search beyond the skin; a disgrace
The beauty within, not upon a face
But what is beauty? It is falsly termed
Beauty is not born, Beauty it is earned
Carry the true beauty within your heart
Never from your lips let anger depart
Within people you trust, always confide
And always search for the beauty, that lies inside.

Beauty is in the eyes of the beholder
Beauty is in all things.
Beauty is in the sky.
Beauty is in the water ever so blue.
Beauty is the winter when trees are covered with snow.
Beauty is the summer when you smell and see the flowers grow.
Beauty is all things big and little.
Beauty is in all things,Black and white.
Beauty is in all things, you and me.
Beauty is all around us...
can't you see?

Running.

suitcase packed with all your things
heart aching,
don't want to watch you go,
hands begin shakeing,
please there's only one thing you should know. .

i'll need time to get you off of my mind,
trying to be intouch with you,
but from time to time,
you fade away.

i lose the things i wish to say.
but until i get used to loseing you,
let me tell you one thing,

i'll get by,
but no matter how i try
chances are my tears will fall,
from time to time
i wish your voice would call out to me.

but they say oh there will be a brighter day,
but all i need to do, is lean on you
till i can make it on my own .

it's hard to breathe without you here,
it's hard to stand without any fear. .
for i stand there in hope to see you
when some things are meant to be broken,
i wish none of this was true.

suitcase packed with all your things,
heart aching dont want to watch you go,
hands begin shakeing
but theres one thing you should know. .

i just want you to know who ive become,
heart open ,
lips closing ,
as you walk away, leaving this reality behind
wishing you would stay.

but if i could change your mind,
would you need me.
because i need you right now'
i try to move on, but this world keeps spinning
as my heart stops beeting
wishing you would come back ..

you left all of your reasons,
as each day goes by,
changes durring each seasons.

suitcase packed with all your things,
wishing that door bell would ring,
don't want you to go,

everyonce in a while,
i can take in a breathe and hold in my tears,
but still my heart begins raceing at a faster pace,

having so many words to say,
only left us here today,
watching you run away.

you run away from the bad things that come in by,
like a storm that rushes in from the dark grey sky.
but running won't help,
running won't heal a broken heart.
running will only tare us apart.

but all else fails you run,
you run so fast ,
every memory we once shared will no longer last.

but suitcase packed with all your things,
the door bell rings,
i don't want you to go,
but there's only one thing you should know. .


i'll be the one to grow time after time,
after all we have been through,
i realized i didn't really know,
it's a good thing that you had to go.

it hurts,
but im going to smile because i deserve to.
and even though your not right beside me,
it will all get better after time & time,
to bad you didn't open your eyes to see,

the things you did wrong,
that lasted so long. .

O c e a n .

Walking; Talking; Chatting; Clicking;
Crashing against the gray stone rocks

-So fierce intense each step by step.
The ocean in the flicker of an eye.
Leading from high down to the beach,
So narrow steep naive and dark,

And yet so pure like the fine sands,
which our feet, together, have still to touch.
Hold closer, closer, capture it all -
Seashell treasures keep memories;
Waves of the night lost in the sea.
Deep true endless romances of the waters,
are cherished lovingly on shore.
Graceful perfection, sea breeze air Silent kisses, stars keep smiles.
Beneath the play shelter,
Hidden from all, nerves swim,
But wait...

the innocence of the moments.
Back to your corner we go,
So gentle intense like the deep mystery.
Hold close, closer, remember all,
Keep your mind clear and heart open'
cause each drop that fills that ocean is a tear I've cried reaching out for you...

World.

as im driving down a busy road,
seeing vehicles that pass on by,
as some turn right & some go left.

isn't it strange thinking how big the world really is,
but when you think about it,
there's so many different worlds here.
you think when one car turns right & the next goes left how many worlds are there really.

this world is so selfish that we don't appriciate the good things anymore,
we take advantage of every single thing that comes our way,
we often lose the little things we fear to say.

what if there was no such thing as makeing mistakes,
would the world be the same or would it be boring.

as you ride a plane and look out the window seeing nothing but the white clouds slowly moving in the thin air,
wondering if you are as high as you can get, or if theres something yet above you, still trying to be discovered. .
wondering if theres something better than where you're about to land.

the world is full of kaosity,
it's a busy place
but yet this world is so beautiful but yet undiscovered by many souls.

half the world lives,
half the world makes,
half the world gives,
while the other half takes,

half the world hates,
half the world runs away,
half the worlds always late,
the other half praises each day.

half the worls lies,
half the world burns,
half the world cries,
and half the world turns.

this world is so big, yet we are so blinde to find the beauty with in it.
were to caught up in ego, and regrets that we won't open up our eyes and just forget.

what kind of world is this,
a world of my own,
a world of expression,
a world never leaving you alone.

looking out that plane window,
seeing clouds floating gently beneath where you fly,
wondering what's above,
or if you can get even more high.

clouds floating by,
realizing the beauty that lies right before those crystal blue eyes,
who would have thought it could be such a beautiful sight,
seeing what was once dark turn into light.

the speed you are flying in,
only takes away a few breaths, wondering what is left.

feeling the turbulance beneath where you sit,
the hope you hold,
& wonders that cross your mind.

how many worlds are there in this one.
because deep inside there are more than just this big old world,
theres a million that surround us ,

look deep inside that beautiful place,
& you will find nothing but grace. .

my big brother, my hero. <3

Brother your light closes over me just like an eyelid.

you and i are in it for the long haul,
and will catch eachother when one falls. .
you are my big brother, and i will always be here for you,
just like i know you'll always be here for me.
We stick together,
Two siblings tied forever
With a rope that refuses to break.

my brother, Who is always there when I need a shoulder to cry on
My brother Who is the one I can go to when Im in any bind
My brother
My brother never judges me
He is always there with a hug
Though we fight, He always has a reason for his anger
And when its not me, He always says Sorry
He is the best brother I could ask for
And Im proud to call him mine.

brother your light closes over me just like an eyelid,
brother your smile lights up and is always there to shine.

Brother can you remember
When we were both still small
The fun we had, the talks we shared
Looking back - we had it all
'
Brother can I play with you
and wear your favorite shirt
Will you let me throw the football once
I swear I won't get hurt
Brother will you help me solve
this problem I have got
There's this boy I know who I really like a lot
Brother will you show me how to try and drive a car
Will you let me drive your brand new truck
I swear I won't go far...

you're always here through it all,
you never seem to let me fall.
you hold me tight ,
you are my shining light.

I’m gonna grow up
And be just like you’
Cause you’re my hero,
My hero, Big Brother.
We were together
No matter what
Even though our lives
Weren’t the best for us.

You are my shield
My knight in shining armor.
You are my Superman to save the day.
We stuck together,
Two siblings tied forever
With a rope that refused to break.

I’m gonna grow up
And be just like you’
Cause you’re my hero,
My hero, Big Brother

<3

the place called h o m e.

sitting here ,
wondering if any-body noticed,
this instant feeling that your drifting out of focus.
trying to fix it, but you're hopeless.

crying,
only to feel apart of you gradually dieing.
what went wrong, what's takeing so long.
reaching so far,
for strength to keep you trying.

say your goodbyes,
to the people in your life that don't care,
say goodbyes to the pain,
and all the darkness that shows in the night.
there will always be a better day,
there will always be that shining light.

look far inside and you will find,
as long as you keep holding on,
you'll carry on.

there's a fire that is burning, burning for all the desire you hold
suddently you see there's a love out there,
there's hope out there, find it , hold it, and believe in it.

when you're feeling lost and all alone,
there's a place you should run to,
a place called your home.

the only place you feel yourself, the only place that truely understands you & who you are,
the place you've grown up in,
it will always make you who you are today. .

remember when the times were rough,
remember when everything felt so tough,
but most of all remember when it was filled with joy,
remember your heart and who you are, this town makes us who we are today.

thinking theres nothing but an empty page,
leaving all of that space,
breathing in captured by that sweet grace. .
moments breaking,
lights dimming nothing feels the same.

but when you're feeling lost and all alone,
there's a place you should run to,
the place called home. . .

voices.

All i think about is how you weren't ever here,
not here to wipe the tears that fell like rain
every year over & over again,

do you even miss me,
do you care at all,

everyday i wake up and think of you,
think of the times we have missed, hopeing to catch up at the end of the day.
you were everything , all the good inside of me,
but that was oh so long ago

you were gone before i knew it ,
never knew what was wrong from right,
if only you would have held on tight .
before i new it , you were gone just like the wind that never stayed to long.

i glance back & remember you were everything to me,
everything i thought i knew,
but in the end wasn't even true.

you told me not to forgive you but told me to understand you,
but it's hard to understand someone who doesn't even understand thereself, or even me. .

the hope & promises of you comeing around,
the forgiveness i gave you, but you took advantage of it,
it's hard to believe everything we have been through,
but yet there's not a single word left to say,
it hurts, and leaves me here it's all ashame.

i have learned that believeing in you is always hard,
but i will never let go,
and even a new day will come on by , and hopefully never fade away. .

i have leanred that through the toughest storms i have strength to make it through,
but what i hope is that you do the same,
when bad things come your way, have hope to renue what you say,
have hope and appriciate what you have and all of the good things that drift your way.

I want you to be a man of your word,
and i want you to be here for me,
i wish none of this was true and everything i ever heard.

but sometimes life get's in the way,
and you follow what other voices say.

just know that through it all ,
i'll always love you & won't ever fall.

saturday afternoon . .

All the smiles you had to fake
And all the crap you had to take

Just to lead us here again
I never have the things to say

To make it all just go away
To make it all just disappear.

to feel more than betrayed and hurt,
to hold back all my tears.

when im looking for truth that's behinde your brown eyes,
you tell me to open my eyes and tell you what i see,

but the fake impression of you, it glows like that innocent moon .
the image others have surounded you with , to make you believe in the identity that is just so not true.

the things you lie to make it through,
the things you say but never do,

the hope in others that they hold
the faith they wish they had in you,
but all of this is gone.

all of this is gone.. .

down these roads i walk . .

Down this dusty dirt road i walk,
Kicking the occasional stone along the way.
Knapsack on my back and an empty feeling in my heart.
Off in the distance, I see a small town.
Looks like every other one I’ve ever seen.
No better no worse. Off in the distance, in this little town, lies my new home.

I'll always have a home to run to,
no matter what people say, i am who i am ,
and that brings me here today.

who we were, only brings us to who we are today,
In our lives we look for happiness.
We seek it in a place. Unfortunately the place, Is not the place we’re in.
We need to look more closely, At the place we’re in. If we look hard enough.
We may find happiness.

In a world filled with such hate,
In a world filled with such violence,
We need a clean slate.

To forget about the pains of the past,
To move forward in light
We need a clean slate.

i walk these roads to find more strength burried beneath the milky way,
i walk these roads to forget about what everyone around will say ,
i walk these roads with no doubt nor regret,
i walk these roads to find hope to forget. .

sometimes. .

Sometimes, it is deep down inside of a man
Who works hard to feed his family.

Sometimes, it is in the arms of a person
Who is fighting for there freedom.

Sometimes, it is in the power & strength of a person
Who is fending off an addiction.

Sometimes, it is in the spirit of a mother
Who will not give up on her dying child.

Sometimes, it is in the "character" of a person
Who is honorably in the midst of dishonorable people.

Sometimes, it is in the soul of a person
Who continues to pray even though he believes God has forsaken him.

Sometimes, it is in the heart of a person
Who loves but is not loved.

taking chances..

What's the point of life, without taking chances,
taking chances could bring you somewhere far and out of that alot of success, and even if taking that chance you fail, you are still in the same spot you ever were in ,
nothing changes, so theres no harm in taking a risk . .

life is meant for taking chances without them we wouldn't know what's wrong from right,
you may feel lost,
confused,
not so sure what to do anymore,
either, try '
give up,
carry on ,

breathing you come to realize life is to short to not take chances.
in the palm of your trusting hand,
and in your trusting heart
you will not be affraid to take a chance.
each chance you take, are all included in lifes great plan.

life is learning to deal with the things that come your way one way or the other,
without taking a risk you'll never know what you may miss out on,
and even if it's not the right choice youll still be standing in the exact same place as you left. .

don't live eachday with fear, for the unexpected,
live each day with an open heart to try new things and open eyes to see the beauty of taking chances, because theres nothing you can lose. .

on that day, where everything feels okay. .

somedays go by slow, feeling the pain through your veins flow.
the lungs aching,
the heart breaking;

somedays go by fast, feeling the faith & hope that will always last.
the desire to shine like fire,
the hope to hold on when your weak,
your heart begins at a faster beat.

you're feeling higher then before,
that feeling goes away that was once so saor. .

the rain drips down but the sun peaks through that shady day,
it shines and opens everyones eyes who were blind.
without a bad day, we wouldn't be able to appriciate the goodones,

it would just be so overated. .
everyone wouldn't be loved only hated,
people wouldn't know what it means to be thankful of what they have,
we all crave for more than what we need,
we crave for the things that catch us at sight,
but all everyone wants to do is follow and never lead. .
nothingness wouldn't bring us light. .

we go on eachday, pretending everything is okay,
but deep inside youll never know the things people hide.
People say things just to make it through the day ,
they lie so no one will find out what they truely hide within. .

but that's just who we are,
without the bad days that may come our way,
we wouldn't appriciate the good ones that stop in by . .

_ what i have learned. . '

I don't want to ever go back to the person i once was,
I learned i gotta take the friends, i have and make ..
hold onto them.
and the one's i lose fight for them ..
and if that's not enough,
let them go
and the ones who really care
come back in time like the stars that shine in the sky every single night.

us people often get stuck in reality, and in our own world.
we block the hurt ones out,
and we get caught up in what we think is "best" .
and us doing that causes friendships breaking ,
lights dim, hearts racing- lights flashing.

i can't stop myself now,
im in far to deep,
but yet i don't miss who i use to be. .
it wasn't me ,
i didn't know who to be. .
im ashamed, i hate who i use to be but i've learned to let it all go.
i'll never face the fact , that i'll always love my old friends.

a smile hid everything i feared of becoming,
but i became what i hated.

i'll be regreting the things i was,
regreting the little things i did,
regreting the life i use to live,

but what i'll never regret, is loving you.
people may change so quick,
but all it takes is time, time heals everything . .

& if it doesn't work have strength to let go. .
your broken dreams, and broken heart , wasted mintues,
nothingness breath,
photographs are all that's left. . .

a friend loves at all times. .

_ a friend loves at all times
the sun shines through there eyes,
as if not a day could go wrong,
with them by their side.

it's as if that feeling of trust stays there for so long.
that no matter what happens you'll always have them there to fall into,
noone can take the trust away no matter what they do.

when they just want to drop everything they have and leave it behind,
something comes through and shows them the sunshine
and shows them they can be strong.
someone out there will show you your strengths when you are weak,
they will be there to walk by your side soon nothing could go wrong,
you have to open your eyes and look beyond the bad and you will seek.

don't wait .
everyone has something to believe in,
it's what they desire and what they have hope & faith in,
without believeing in things in this world we wouldn't know how to have hope and have faith this world wouldn't be the same place. Everyone needs somthing to believe in.

friendship is hard to find,
but once you've got it , you have this feeling inside
that you can leave everything else behind,
you lose your guilt , and all of your regrets
you once had that special feeling but now all everyone does is forget. .

sometimes it's better to be in a dream then to be stuck in this world so called "reality" .
but when you have that feeling a special someone comes along - your friend .
they will be there when ever you need someone to lend a hand.

to help bring you up, to touch the moon & stars,
to know that you'll always be close and never to far.
to know that when you feel like your dieing you'll always have that person to turn to and confess,
confess the feelings you hold within your soul .

it's hard to see the sun without a friend to set it in your eyes,
they bring the sun when the clouds are out,
they bring the laughter and memories when you're filled with doubt .
they bring you their heart when yours feels broken,
they are your special little token.

friendship is being strong enough to trust in someone when you have no trust left. .
it hides beneath your soul trying to so hard to shine,
that person sudently makes everything again fine. . .

they take your fears away and bring you light,
they can lead you through a hard and dark night,
without them there by your side this world wouldn't be such a beautiful sight. .

_ friends love at all times. . .

The reflection - in that mirror. .

when you look in that mirror of yours what do you see?

do you see the real you,
or do you see the fake one hiding behind perfection. .
the one trying to be something not true.
trying to hide all the feelings and effections . .

as if you're not good enough,
but everyone around you is oh so perfect.
you hold on and become very tough. .
hopeing that everything goes by fast but yet your scared of what it will effect.

you only have strength to wish for a better tomorrow,
you use all your faith & all your sorrows
nothing left but that image in that mirror,
wondering what is deep inside,
but only leaves you with a tear. .

but there on your face was that fake smile that was applied. .
you make a wish on a shooting star ,
hopeing things will be different,
but everything is the same no matter where you are.

that mirror may show the image of you ,
but it doesn't show the image inside that you may hide .
the mirror may tell alot about what you look like on the outside,
but it will never show the true image of you , it will never show the feelings you hold beneath your heart. .

you can't judge a person by the image of them,
you can only try to look beyond that face,
beyond what the first impression. .

people always say first impression is the best way to look for in a person,
but to me that's not true.
you can't tell who they really are by there first impression, because if they are having a bad day that could effect who they really are.
it could change there whole perspective on things, and it could show you someone they really arent. People often say its the best way to look at a person, but if there upset about somthing we usually look past that and judge them we don't take enough time to ask what's wrong ,
and get to know there true image, everyones beautiful in there own way, and sometimes we don't take time to let people speak what they have to say.
what they may be feeling in those moments that slowly pass by.

we just think it's easier to judge them, for who they might be, then to actually take these precious moments and get to know the real person they are.
people often say lieing is easier than to tell the truth,
and thats what people do when they have a bad day, but we need to realize that no ones perfect , and that everyone is beautiful and are here for a reason.

so next time when you look in that mirror,
know that everyone is beatiful ;
and inside is the true beauty that lies. .

don't change for the ones around,
don't fear the things people may think,
because everyone is different but yet so beautiful inside.

feelings hide everything...

people are often left behind the ones who are blinde. .

somethings you say, may have the power to hurt people. .

do you ever feel out of place,
like somehow, somewhere you just don't belong.
you wana run, you wana hide and meet a new face. .
and you just wana forget that song. .

the song that lead you to tears,
left you empty and hopeless inside,
hidden inside were found only your fears,
all you remember is his shallow heart filled with pride.

most people out there are in there own world
they forget about others around,
it's as if there never to be found. .

they forget that there not the only ones out there,
while others are hurt and it just isn't fair.

they walk around as if there the only important ones to be found ,
when there's a whole world ahead of them,
and there are beautiful people everywhere,
people are usually just to blinde to realize so little things they may miss.

there scared of the fame that they could lose,
but not scared for others who hold all the pain .

they hide it in there eyes,
only to tell all of the lies, everyone is a person and should be treated that way,
were all different inside but thats what makes us people.
but deep inside we sometimes forget about the others around who may not make a suddle sound but deep down they want to be noticed aswell . .

it's as if they are living a shadow of people, like they are seen, but people get to distracted to actually see right through them, they may look at them but in those minutes they don't take enough time to actually see them for who they are. .

we all feel as though we don't belong,
but in a matter of time people will prove you wrong.

you may feel like still running away,
like you're out of place, and just don't belong,
that you're never right only wrong. .
you wana run, you wana hide,
you wana leave this place behinde. .

but reality hits you,
just like a raindrop from the sky,
you wish that feeling you held inside wasn't so true,
you're stuck there wondering why. .