wishin' on a thunderstorm.

When i was younger i remember sitting in your arms as thunder would strike, i remember feelin' like those thunderstorm nights would leave me so secure because that's where i found myself in your arms.

I remember prayin' and hopin for another thunderstorm night,
so the loud thunder would come and defeat the loud fights.
Love would remain and i would sit there in your arms as i watch the lightning strike off the windows, as i heard the thunder. I didn't even have to for one sec wonder, because i knew in your arms i felt safe.

Now all i think about is how we're at arms length, i'm tryin to feel secure and safe again, i really am.
But it's hard to do that without you. Even though thunder brings in the fear, i knew nothing could hurt me aslong as you were near, i knew i was safe with you.

I'm wishin for another thunderstorm night, so i can hang on tight and just know you'll never let me go, know everything will be alright.

I'm wishin'

am.i.just.like.you,

can't you see i kinda'need y o u .

am.i.just.like.you,

can't you see i'm missing y o u .

am.i.just.like.you,

can't you face what you've become .

am.i.just.like.you,

trying to fill a space inside .

am.i.just.like.you,

all the things you took, i don't think will ever help myself because when you left you took a part of me.

am.i.just.like.you,

feelin the moments just slip away.

am.i.just.like.you,

empty promises that break.

am.i.just.like.you,

a fool and a fake, lies you always make.

am.i.just.like.you,

trying to cope with the hurt you feel.

am.i.just.like.you,

losing a hope.


am.i.just.like.you,

havin a soul full of fear.

am.i.just.like.you,

fighting a battle you just can't win.


am.i.just.like.you.

losing direction,losin faith, livin' in sin.

am.i.just.like.you.

feelin all alone, with only doubt.

am.i.just.like.you.

wanting only to scream and shout.

am.i.just.like.you.

t r u t h

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f a r

f r o m
" J u s t L i k e Y o u " .

Why?

So Yesturday i promised myself i wouldn't miss you tomorrow,

Tomorrow is here, and i miss you..
I Just Miss you.

Why I Smile,
I smile because you are apart of my life,
I smile because of the great person you are,
I smile because you amaze me, and are here with ever lasting love.
I smile because I know how lucky I am, and how much God has blessed me.
I smile because I know you will always be here,
I smile because no matter what my flaws are you always love me,
I smile because, when I’m around you there’s nothing else I can do..
I smile because you are wonderful, and because God shines through in all that you do.
I smile because I love you.

I want to see the world as you do,

I want to see the hurt you see everyday,

I don't want to care what others may say,

I want to sacrifice things not for my sake but others,

I want to touch peoples hearts the way you do,

I want every fatherless child to know what it's like to have you as their father,

I want to be so strong just like you,

I want to see the world at your eyes view,

I want a love that i never knew,

I just want to be the person your hearts desire is for me to be.

Show me, open my eyes to things that i would never see, fill my heart.

I'm reachin' Up,Out & In.
Help me be the person you want me to be . .

somedays the pain overtakes my strength,
tares it apart until i'm weak.

Atleast that's what it feels like.

somedays i just want to run, run and never stop
until i find the place i want to be, the place meant for me.

Atleast that's what i want.

somedays i hate you,
and i just want to sit and scream.

Atleast that's what i thought.

somedays i forgive you,
until the last thing to do is love you.

Atleast that's what i should do.

I want you to keep fighting this, i want to keep rooting and praying for you, and i never want to face the fact of letting you go, But somedays i feel like that's all i have to do to finally move on, I feel like i have to let you go on order to move on from the place im in right now, That's the way i feel.

but if all of this is true, please prove me wrong, because i don't ever want to face the fact of letting go of you. .

But than i realize the beauty in this all,
The beauty that won't let me fall
God .
For he is there through every crappy day i face, and he is there with arms wide open waiting for me to jump in them, waiting for me to forgive you. And so i think and begin to see that forgiveness heals the broken. God heals the broken, God heals the hurt, God will take the pain away. He will heal every single one of us, we just have to let him in to do it.

<3

EverlastingLove.

He Brings:

Hope to the Hopeless,

strength to the weak,

wealth to the poor,

joy to the tired,

health to the sick,


love to the hurt,

truth to all the lies,

forgiveness to the forgivers, and the sinners for Our God never betreys and never rejects us, he loves us no matter what our faults are, no matter what shame we carry he just,
he just loves us.
It's everlasting love.

<3

†

There is a God who heals,
there is a God who forgives,
there is a God who finds,
there is a God who loves.

there is a God who's strong,
there is a God who shines,
there is a God who teaches,
there is a God who loves.

there is a god,
there is a god who sacraficed
and i will praise him for eternity,

for i love him, because he first loved me.

†

With arms wide open
Under the sunlight
Welcome to this place
I'll show you everything
With arms wide open
Now everything has changed
I'll show you love
I'll show you everything
With arms wide open.

You may never have to face the decision of whether or not to die for your faith, but every day you face the decision of whether or not you will live for it.

Today : March twenty third.

I asked a special friend for some advice today, it was that

me:
"as everyday goes by i'm losing that hope i have for him and i hate it. Everyday he's not here is another day of missing him, and i hate the fact there's nothing i can do about it."


She replied:

"never lose that hope dani there is always hope and God moves in his own time and at his own speed i know it's hard and it hurts but you can't give up hope."


There's nothing better than to have that person around for you to turn to when your days are crappy, and you just feel like the only thing you can do is give up. Noone can get through a happy life alone, it takes you , your family , your friends and most of all God . For God never leaves your side and is there day after day.

<3

changing.

The difference between the "bad" & "good" is that the bad know exactly what they did wrong, and still do nothing about it.
Whereas the good know exactly what they did wrong, but will do and give everything and anything they have to change.

they actually care,
care enough to change.

Noones perfect, but that doesn't give you an excuse to stop trying.
To be the person god desires you to be, you have to realize the mistakes you make, and not just sit there and ponder about them, but change. Because honnestly you can't change anyone except yourself, and sitting there doing wrong and realizing it without changing only gets you nowhere.

But changing who you are will get you somewhere,
it can get you anywhere.

...

it's starting again.
the pattern you never fail to do , it's starting
it's finally starting again.

The promises you make,
and the promises you break.

The lies you speak,
the fear you bring, the guilt you spread .
it's starting again, it's all starting again.

i can't make it go away
i try, but i can't.

I need you
but i can't.

& sometimes we just don't know. .

`How is it that some questions i have will never be answered,
Only analyzed and pondered upon until my heart and mind can’t take it anymore.

Thats a question the majority of us have been dying to know, we live on each day with wonders, of why? Wonders of what might have been, or how things may have been different. But yet we're all in the exact same place pretending we have all the answers, only to make ourselves feel better. Pretending everything is alright, when really we all have our fair share of feeling like nothing is right.

and in those times all i can do is turn back to the truth. Which is Everything happens for Gods purpose. We can't change reality, and we surely can't change the world until we change ourselves. We don't have all of the answers we are dying inside to know, but that's because it's all in the palms of God's hands. Waiting to be poored out. Everyone says "time" heals the broken, but my opinion is different. I think God heals the broken in time.

God will show you the answers you are looking for, the answers your heart desires to know. You just have to let him show you, they are there you just have to open your eyes and have the faith that you can look beyond whats infront of you and see the truth.

All answers will be answerd by God. For he knows how we feel everyday, he knows the things we fear, the tears we cry, the love we have, the smile we hide, the burdens we carry, the mistakes we've made and the regrets we have gained he knows it all. Let him reach out to you and heal you, let him show you the answers you are dying to know.

<3

Life.

Life is about change, sometimes it's painful,
sometimes it's beautiful

but most of the time it's both.